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What do I have to do?
I’m so very much in love with you
In like with you
In want of you
In need of you
But it’s hard
Being with you in this invisible life
I don’t think twice or hesitate
I might talk too much, but hey that’s just me what can I say?
You tell me to talk to you, but then you push me away
A clear indication you don’t want to hear what I have to say
I tell you too much and you conceal too much
Why has our involvement always been so hush hush
But there’s never a doubt I give you that needs to be erased
I love you under any circumstances
No matter the cause, no matter the case
I’ll risk any chance
And I don’t care who hears
In my world love conquers all
Love has no fears
It’s just you and I
But some things recently have made me question why
Why I’m whisked away... like one day I’m seen
The next day it’s like oh what happened to what’s her name?
I can’t call and you can’t talk
Maybe it’s my fault you won’t give me your heart
Or maybe it’s your parents expectations
I just want to understand what’s happening
And why it has to be this hard
I don’t know but I’m lonely
wanting for the explanations
And it’s so hard living this invisible life
I’ve given you my heart
I’ve given you my love
I’ve given you my body
I’ve given you my all
Every single day and every single night
But it’s hard
Being with you living this invisible life
I love you 24 hours of each day
I want you…to see you; be with you 365 days in every way
The twelve months in between
Leap years and holidays
But it’s hard
Being with you in this invisible life
You keep telling me to calm down
Chill out
Be cool
But you’re pushing me out of your life
Is this what your love is all about?
Keeping me on the back burner
Making me feel like a fool
If this is in fact a relationship, you’ve broken all the rules
The song says love the one you’re with
It’s time you took some risks
Because…I want to scream my love
Shout, dance and stomp my love
Sing my love
Write my love
Share my love with the one I love
But it’s hard
It’s so hard living this invisible life
Your love one day is in my reach
The next day it’s gone, no trace, impossible to see
Do you want me in your life?
Am I the all the time or part time?
I’ve always been willing to do all I can
You know there’s a good woman behind every good man
But it’s hard
When I don’t understand
And you don’t try to make me see
What is going on?
What is taking place between you and me?
Is this true romance
Or are we having an affair
Am I the leading lady?
Or am I second best?
Some days I can’t tell
I don’t want to hear that "give it time" mess
Am I really the one for you and this is just my test?
I’ve sacrificed for you
I’ve denied things for you
I’ve let go things for you
Because all I wanted was to be with you
Praying it was the right thing to do
But in the end…who will win?
Your past love or your present undercover, giving you booty when you want it and some head friend
Maybe I’m not the one for you but all I ask is that you be true
And stop hiding me and being afraid
Don’t be ashamed if I’m the choice you’ve made
I deserve more than this invisible life
I long to bare your children
I hope to be your wife
I consider you my friend
My partner
My next of kin
But maybe you’re not ready
And all that I feel is invisible to you
Maybe I’m just blind
And the answer has always been in front of me
There will never be a me and you
And all I have to look forward to is an invisible life with you
But it’s hard
It’s hard being with you
We’re all grown so why the illusion
Pretty soon I’m going to draw my own conclusion
And be forced to doubt what you say
You need to make some decisions if you want me to stay
We can’t make the world happy
That’s something you say
Maybe iot would be easier if you taught me to turn my feelings on and off to please others like you do
Huh! It wouldn’t work because I can’t conceal what is destined for me to do
And I was made to love you
Not be invisible to you
I need to know the truth
No more invisible life
I look in the mirror everyday and I see me
I know you see me too
