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I got issues. Issues that miss use.
Miss use to get thru.
To get thru the bull$#!it.
Once I do ....what do I do?
Revert back to that dude and get into more s#!t.
I'm feeling morbid.
Like my corpse is my only alternative.
Since my beginning pops was only conerned with his.
So being self centered was how I learned to live.
DAMN!! I got issues. Issues that I miss use
Miss use because of what I've lived through.
I've lived through ....WARS!
Wars unlike any gangfight between
The satan knights or the warlords
It was my moms and her husband.
They stayed beefing.
But never over cheating.
It was when they broke down the drugs they were about to use and the piles were uneven
Or when she went on her on mission.
He didn't want her to leave him.
Not out of jealousy but envy.
Envy of her getting high alone was the only reason.
HELL YEAH!!!!......
I got issues.Issues that I miss use.
MISS USE!!!!...... Because I am so resentful.
So resentful because I didn't take advantage of the window.
The window of opportunity back when life was so simple.
Back when ......I didn't study or practice.
Back then it was backflips over a piss stained mattress.
As I got older I developed more bad habits.
Like the ones for chasing women above average
AND for trying to keep up with the masses.
MAAAAAN!!!!
I got issues.Issues that I miss use.
Miss use because I'm a big dude.
And big dudes don't cry , we don't need tissues.
We don't complain about the pain or the issues.
The issues that I miss use.
MISSED USED to get thru.
To get thru what I've lived thru.
WHAT I LIVED THRU?
The effects of which have trickled .
Trickled down to my essence.
And that's the essence
Of why I'm so resentful
