This great big smile may not be as it appears, the truth behind its presence is a mystery
Look Into my eyes...although you may not see no tears, you can tell that theres been a past historyMany sleepless nights feeling down and depressed, thinking about my past and my lifetime regretsAs i put on my makeup, fix my weave and take a glanceIn the mirror...i must admit, im not impressedWho do i think im fooling? This chick aint me!This smile aint real, this just cant be!!Im letting past taunts get the best of me& im crying deep inside, but no1 can see!All they see is a smile thats been forced on my faceNo1 seems to have a clue about the torment ive faced& it really doesnt matter how gorgeous they say...That i am, i will always be unsure anywaysBeautiful? Please..boy save that ishCause' way back in the day they aint say that ishI remember when they used to call me names and ishI aint gon lie, it still haunts me to this day and ishSo yes i admit.. Im a little insecure..and yes feeling pretty is a challengeIf i could view life through the eye of the beholder my self esteem would rise above averageNo im not perfect.. Im Far from that, and yes i have a couple impuritiesIve got to stop worrying bout all of that, and learn to secure my insecurities