In this graveyard far away from home I turn over stones
Blood on my hands from picking up hard plastic and broken bones
Still I look to the bones in closets and under carve stones
All the answers to my questions are gone there unknown
All the secrets kept from me about the sins of my family
Closed inside of a deep dark pit filled with facets anomalies
Standing beside deaths bed all alone the life support is on
I'm torn in wait of a word to be said or moaned
Something to pull back the scabs to the bone
From the womb to the wounds stand back
Give me some room to bleed out my lack
My case I plead “Please don’t go don’t you leave
This thing clings to me like a pet my shame my regret
You know why I do the things I do surely you do
Look at me you gave me this painful kiss
Again I ask you this will you take this with you
Will you dare? Lay there like you don’t care
I see you in intensive care, am I here to unplug you?
No I’m here to revive me your eyes are closed you don’t see
You have the secrets you hold the key
To unlock this cage inside of me
Let this monster go free that’s devouring
Clawing and ripping flesh from me traumatizing me
This beast rises up into my throat gagging me
Take these bandages off of me mummifying me
Don’t you die on me with all that you’re holding?
Is sure to fall on me leading me back to therapy
Ask me why? I don’t cry I guess I’m just desensitized
What I need to know I’m trying to find to grow
I’ve been here before like a dream or déjà vu
I stand in front of a closing door
To never knock again no more
No leg to stand on in my hands a serpent and a stone
A generational curse and an empty home
Too old to take it slow talk and I’ll let you go
So you can rest in peace isn’t it always so?