should i follow my heart or go along with my mind
they both are saying two different things & i'm torn between the two
my heart says to stay
while my mind tells me to go
i'm in agreement with my heart but it has lead me wrong before
i don't know what to do i'm torn in between the two
one right one wrong
i can't decide
it's to much of a risky choice
if i stay i'm afraid things will be the same
if i go i'll have to start all over with someone new
and that's not something i'm willing to do
the faces change with the same situation
years pass
and i'm in this same place
fighting the war of heart & mind
i can't chose a side they're both a part of me
both possessing valid points
neither stick out like a sore thumb making my choice easier
the pros & cons are equal
for some reason i still feel unbalanced
still feel if i make a decision it will end up being the wrong one
no matter how much each side plead it's case
i'm still sentenced to being unhappy
unhappy with my decision
what should i do
i dont want to be confused
i dont want to regret my selection
i ask God for His imput and it seems He doesn't hear me
or maybe i'm ignoring the signs
thinking it's meant to be the other way around
will my heart and mind ever be on one accord
for some reason i feel the answer will always be no
when it comes to this matter
the matter of love & moving on
or is it lust decieving me to believe it's love
love the thought of having someone
even if its's the wrong one
only time will tell
im impatient
i've waited for to long
with everyone whose entered my life posing to be the one
only for them to walk away as if i never existed
never mattered
i must be defective to keep making the incorrect compromise
of the heart & mind
or is it flesh that's assisting me
pursue the wrong accommodation
sexual stimulation playing a great part to my selection
it wins while i lose everytime
in the battle of heart & mind