Kisses lost in last years calendar. Left over hugs from our anniversary still torture me. It was yesterday you slept over. You left your scent on my pillow. I’ve been sleeping on that pillow going on a year now. Yesterday seems so far when I really think about it. Yesterday somehow turned into yesteryear on me. I’ve been SO stuck since you’ve been gone. All of these questions in my head but, they’re just different variations of “Where did we go wrong?!â€. I cry with my head down because I’m ashamed of myself. I’m ashamed to realize that this is what we’ve come to! I refuse to believe that there was something I could of done to bring us to this point! Wasn’t I good to you? Wasn’t I good for you?! When did we get so distant? TOO MANY questions and not enough answers. Why is it that you get to move on and I’m here stuck? I know I should be happy for you but, I can’t find it in myself to be anything less than bitter. That happiness you found when you moved on was supposed to OUR HAPPINESS. Is it wrong that I want you to suffer like I’m suffering? Am I not allowed to say “I love you†and tell you I mean it? Is it less sincere because your current happiness brings me sorrow? TOO MANY questions!!! It’s been a year since we’ve last been together. Before that year It’s been 5 years since we’ve been apart. I’m having a hard time coping.
Baily
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