"Leave me alone!"
"I didn't mean to do it.."As she sobs hiding under the bed sheets; knees to her chest, the drumming of her heart beats.Sweat pouring down;the clitter clatter as her adjacent jaws strike each other; all because of the bad deeds, and her sown seeds.She chose to be quiet; now she's schizophrenic as the walls speak; it gets even worse as she knows what they seek.A young soul begging her to repent and pay for her sins; as the clock strikes twelve the echoes of insanitys arrival (tick tock) begin to sing.As she remenices on the past evening; swirving through traffic in a rush to get home; 3 blocks away from her driveway as she hit something.Contemplated on wether to check; but she figured "What the heck?"; must be a stray dog, so she reversed, turned the stearing wheel to the right and proceeded on her way.Never took a second to think of the consequences; now her sane mentality took a plummet and has never been the same since that day.......Headline news :"MURDER ON GRISHAM ROAD, YOUNG BOY KILLED, police are investigating"......Back in her room, the newspaper article soggy with tears; guilt has run its course by encapsulating her with every form of fear.Insomnia stricken as everytime she shuts her eye-lids she sees his face; crimson colours everywhere she looks, in the centre of her room, back and fourth she begins to pace.Dellusional with only the purpose to escape; She places a stool in the epicentre; under the light bulb, with trembling limbs she sits and tighs a noose......Headline news "SUICIDE! YOUNG ADULT TAKES HER LIFE, police are investigating".....Guilt has run its course.
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Torn Apart : Guilt
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jnikic5 says: dang this is powerful |
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love_supreme says: I agree, this is very powerful. |
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Number3 says: Thank you. Word up |
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T'ya says: Oh wow!!! This is such an amazing piece!!! The visual imagery really puts the reader in her frame of mind. I couldn't imagine being in that position because it felt very real reading your words!!! Very powerful and extremely well written spill!!! |
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