unreleased pain

Wanting Love

Im nervous of me seeing him and wanting to be with him

Just one night and then it turns into the weekend and then it begins

Im shaking when days are between him

And my nights of me holding my pillow is so boring

While watching sweet love stories

Then family well…that’s a long story

By the way my name is Taurie

Picking at my pockets and finding pennies at the end of my wholly purse

Cursed by love but I want to be loved first

Only things I dare not to say hurt the most

I want him in a different way then most of them hoes

I want kids and thanksgiving at my place

Smiles all over my home from moments captured

Fireplace burning while the walls are filled with warmness and laughter

Pillows only being used for decoration because I have a chest that’s beats because im near

Forget money I want to have love that will never disappear

Because im n...

Baggage Claim

They say men aint shhh

But what about them

Women tend to forget

how weMisuse that once upon of time prince

And then years later a different man

Broke our heart aint that a B****

Oh well long story short I can tell

Not used to karma ringing a bell

See I must admit I have had my heartbroken

But I aint mad at him

Cause he couldn’t take me serious

Because of past events

And I couldn’t trust cause of what my ex had did

We seems to carry baggage miles away from the airport

Smoke Newport’s cause they be stressing us

Let our feelings get the best of us

I just think its all goes in a circle

Nobody aint shhh

Cause we all done hurt somebody in life

so do we even deserve to be treated right

of course we do

so we need to drop all them bags off

True 

R.I.P

Our hearts that beat because of you

Still daydream about you

Plenty memories surround our vision

Our hearts without you wouldn’t be living

We love you both for God knows

And our heart remain warm from the thoughts

We feel you in our soul

Rest in Peace

One day we all will met

In the mean while we just want to say

We Miss you In Loving Memory…

My first time

My first time was suppose to be sweet

Rose petals as he place kisses all over me

And the love that’s in our hearts was gonna be speaking volumes

That’s what I thought me losing my virginity was suppose to be like

Instead it want nice

Unplanned, unexpected just took my innocent body

Something that had a lock on it “my treasure”

So how could this old man open it without permission?

Invitation I was his victim

His greed to touch little women

Cause me to never enjoy the real moment of intimacy

I didn’t cry or weep

Instead I used to lay there for men to take what was already taken from me

A hoe I wouldn’t consider myself

But thankful

I came to realize it wasn’t my fault

It was something I couldn’t control

He will have to answer to God for God knows

victim to be nothing

Babies crying
Mama’s on there tracfone lying
Older child cooking a meal
Ol man walking round singing couldve been in dru hill
All and still
No ones thinking bout much
If its not about some BS they don’t want to listen
Food stamp man coming he buying her whole kitchen
While her 6 babies dying to eat a sandwich
Not much but mama all about the cash
The young girl across the street brother beating her a$$
While the girls with 5 sisters all laugh
And their mommy shooting bad
Without drugs she wouldn’t last
Her babygirl pregnant by her own dad
And nobody trying help they aint screaming
Cause they all know no ones coming
They had no direction no mind to function with
Needed a rode model since they was a young’n
But it started long ago
I just want the world to have peace and happiness you know
But instead half of t...

Working

At work, working so hard

Only to pay bills

And make it to work

Gas prices ridiculous’s

A miracle needs to happen

God got me

I believe

Before I know I am going to win

I will be famous

I will see beautiful things

Read for big events

People will rock to my rymth riding down the street

Walking or running got me in their ears

Reading my books they get tears

And then

Ill be work but enjoying

Only to do what Taurie likes

Paying bills smirking like that nothing

Im going be rich

The world better watch out cause Im coming

Poetry is who found me I want put here to do nothing

WORTHLESS "LOVE"

Worthless to the one that used me dry

So they said but they keep calling I ask why

Worth more than he knows

For time will rewind those times when they all lied

And cheated misused me something they’ll have to repeat

Walking in there own shoes

Im worth more than a fist to my temple

Tryin tp knock my confidence out the window

Transmissions blowing up my observation

I need an operator

Love matcher, why love gotta matter???

I was flattered that he told me I was beautiful

I was a fool over the wrong tree

Thought they all belonged to me

Where was my mind at when she was walking my heart beside them dogs on the leash….

SEARCHING FOR A GOOD MEN

If they text me good morning I feel good like…

He just might be the guy

Laughing at my weakness in men

There lies I want to see the truth in

They approach me with wedding rings on, or saggy jeans, smoking trees, doing illegal things

There life story always tragic

So how he pose to help me with my life matters

By putting me to sleep

But I get bored quick if he aint making me numb from it

Then trying ask me for money after he hit like he done…

Tap my brain they be using

They be confusing a B****

How hard is it to just find a man that do what you say with some Good ol D***

Smh you try driving to las vegas in 3 hrs from nc

Cause that hard to find

Im just tired of wasting my damn time….

In the mean while adding on miles on my one of a kind ocean wine…

venting

I feel the pain

But I

Just want to tuck it away

And then

Go on about my day

So why

This pain want go away

I cry

To try to regain

I lie

To myself and others smile and say I am ok

But no

That smile is crumbling away I feel it

My eyes are burning up like hell

Its bout to rain and pour I can tell

Screaming aint going do enough

For I shall

Be better after I face the monster in me

The hatred I have towards many

The disgust I have spit on the ground

I don’t want to go through this pain now

Things mama said I can hardly remember wow

I was young so I didnt get educated from her long enough

All I know like her I am so tuff

Oh how I miss her love

And mean side if she could slap me right now I feel so good inside

But but but it aint going to happen

Im mad yall f*** these l...

if mama was here

The other day I saw this older woman get out her car and she kind of favored my mother but she was just older than her so I was staring at the lady and now I cant stop wondering how would she look if she was here with me now, how will she sound now, how would she treat me, how she would wear her hair, would her crooked smile be the same, would she cook every Sunday for me to come over, what would her cellphone number be and what would be her song and how long would she hug me and her laugh I wish I could hear, oh how I just wish my mama was still here