... Sitting here thinking why I let it go so young. I wasn't ready for it , but I thought I was. I gave my Momma's secret away to someone who didn't care at all. I'll never be able to get over how I let you use me even though it was NOT rape , I allowed it to happen. when you have Raging hormones and all you can do is think about how it is , or what its like ..... you don't think of the consequences that come along with it. Dealing with this battle of hope .. hope that you would love me til the end , and we could be together as long as I knew the word Eternity. I replay the vision over and over again because Its you I can't stop thinking of . Its not the "joy" and "happiness" you gave me ... its the PAIN , AND THE REGRET , AND THE MOVING ON WITHOUT ME THAT YOU GAVE ME AND I HATE YOU FOR IT . SLEEPLESS NIGHTS , CRYING OF THE SOUL UNTIL THERE IS NOTHING LEFT BUT SCARS. somebody please tell me why I could not WAIT . do you even care ? did you fall in love like you said you did , or was that just another way of making me believe that you was different..you are like heartless corpes waiting to feed off of the weak , and I was the main corspe in the burned out , dim , wedding dress , standing there with the look on my face asking , "what's next ?" there is NO next. I travel alone in my dreams each night waniting to know why you hurt , I just don't understand why its not okay for you to love me ... when you have smoke from a fire as a mouth ... there isn't much you can do... this is what I call A LONG REGRET .
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"A Long Regret"
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Number3 says: and I was the main corspe in the burned out , dim , wedding dress , standing there with the look on my face asking , "what's next ?" there is NO next" Pieces like that made this a beautiful and deep...thought provoking poem to read...nice one. WORD UP |
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neiqhh121 says: aww , thankss sweetie (: |
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DallasCowgirl says: Wow. Deep |
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