waiting

waiting

 as i am standing here in the midst of my turmoil and dispair i am patientlly waiting

as i think back on all the hardships that i've faced in my life i am patiently waiting

as life tosses me to and fro i am patiently waiting

waiting waiting waiting

waiting for my night in shining armor thats suppossed to come sweep me off my feet at least thats what the book said

waiting for that sheer stroke of luck at winning the lottery at least thats wat the man at the gas station said

waiting for a sign something to reassure me that all i've been througheveryache and pain in my body was not in vain

waiting on my miracle, waiting on my chance to be on top for once

ughhh....no im really just waiting on the bus and it's running late which will inevitably make me late for work AGAIN!

time

 as i sit here in the corner

im supposed to be thinking about what i've done then i know whats expected of me when they return

they want me to apologize and agree to never do it again

but i will not

i will not agree to such terms for i meant what i said 

it was the whole truth and nothing but the truth so help me God

i refuse to conform to the common sence of society 

why is it its ok for me to lie and give someone an empty compliment but not ok for me to tell them the truth and give what i see as some very much needed constructive critisism?? why? why? why?

im dying to know the answer can someone enlighten me please?

and please dont feed me the same tired line im tired of hearing..."It's not nice"

boo who, the world aint nice and it will slice, dice, mince and saute you if you let it

so yea, i won't take it back never...oh shh here they come

"what do you have to say for...

B.E.D

here i lay

in my bed, my comfort zone 

the place i go to when i wish to escape the realness of my reality 

i cover myself with my blanket of insecurities and imperfections

i lay my head on my pillow of self told lies that everything is ok

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These two terms are wreaking havoc in society today. My views on the word are irrelevant but I will shed a little rationalism on the use of these terms.
My brothers and sisters of color tell me this: How can we become angered and upset at another race of people for calling us a term that we openly call each other? When answering to this demeaning and degrading term you give off the impression that it is alright and no harm is done.
To say that it is merely a term of endearment between our people of color today is usually how most respond to someone outside the African-American race. Now if this be the case then answer me this: Why can't a white man or person of Asian descent use it in the same manner?
To top it all off many African-Americans have friends and associates of other races that they converse with and by some secret rite of passage for having a black friend they get to use the "N" word without being remanded? What sense does t...

Rise and Shine

 Rise and shine, sleepy head gone get up out of bed calls momma from the kitchen.
I could tell she was cooking breakfast because I could smell the savory scent of bacon in the air but there I lay still in my bed

Rise and shine, sleepy head gone get up out of bed daddy calls from the bathroom.
I knew he was shaving his whiskers cuzz I could hear the faucet running and smell his stinky aftershave but still I laid in my bed

Rise and shine sleepy head gone get up out of bed calls my little brother from his room
I knew he had to be playing with his toys cuzz I could hear his buzz light year action figure saying to infinity and beyond, over and over again. But still I lay in my bed.

Rise and shine sleepy head gone get up out of bed…and I popped up scared out my mind not knowing were in the world that voice came from.

But I figured it was nothing and laid back down still in my bed.
Wh...