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My father never ............

Taught me how to ride a bike

And I wonder why is there so much hatred inside me

towards him

He's never given me the time of day

The reason I can see any seriousness inside black men

I've seen the way my mother cries

Even though he has money in his pocket

I know what it's like to go to sleep hungry

My parents make me never want to have kids

No need for birth control because of this life I live

I don't see how two people can stay together after

and not benefit each other

I don't see how two people can deal

and not show each other affection

These mean words everyday

These mean thoughts everyday

I'm quick to pick up my and live

I'm not a baby I'm almost 23

and I never quite had the family that you see on tv

Not at all

All I have at times is my sister

Would it be mean for me to just up and leave

Seems like no moment is ever my moment

No moments waits for no man

Nor does time

I'm walking this fine line of love and hate

That's why I skate and when I fall sometimes I don't even feel the pain

And people say you aint always gotta be so hard

But without a drink, dealing with all my pains would be so hard

Friends abandon me they jump shift because I don't feed into

Caring about folks feelings nonsense

Indeed I can be a cold B**** but if you've never

Fail you wouldn't know what to try

I try to leave here ever day and all my pains behind

I try to find a smile everyday and it hurts sometimes

If we do repeat lifetimes

I never want to come back if its like this the next time

Kuz my tears are stone

I bleed when I cry

And when I skate it makes my heart beat inside

Do you know why the cage bird sung

Because it knew that was gonna be it's last song

And I feel like when I shed another it will be my last tear

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OTHER POEMS WRITTEN BY Mona_LisaNvaSmiles

Homeless

There's no one out here to help the homeless never in my life I thought this would be me Busting myto see where home is Yet they say home is where the hurt is Well my heart is in hell From different hotels to sleeping in my whip at the park You can't get mad when people don't want to deal with you no more No hot food Cold showers at the gym thankful for spring Could you image that winter wind Still driving to work haven't had a second to think About my mentally Wondering did any of them see me Going home to home avoiding family stares Then I see someone like me really worst than me They don't have a car But they have a heart and needed to eat I make sure you eat I give you Spare change spare change spare change Nothing material means a thing Because I'm not gonna be able to get gas But it's OK I listened Collecting stories Person to person we all relate Eviction notice, just didn't pay, check came too late, went to court, went through divorce, abus...

Different

It's OK to be strange In fact no one is the same No snowflake comes in pairs and some twins are identical It's OK to use salt instead of a little of sugar We sweet and salty things to all be human beings But all that we are bringing is confusion Whose right to choosey who set you to judge Man woman woman man man is it a spouse Do you love like I love and lay like I lie? Why Why why why Do we ask this million of times Just because it's not your way is this wonderland Do you just automatically get to pick Off with heads Did we make you head king or head queen ? Or is your authority more than the majority ? Do you rank higher than high to get all this glory ? Some things on a pedestal can look like asses on a stool And all stools come from holes with no good smells or looks

My change

I'm at a lost do I tell you everything that I'm going through

or do I write and make like my life is not my life

I be wondering should I pray

my faith bounces back and forth everyday

cant act like this ain't been a strange life for me 2015

has been a hell of a year so far 3 close deaths lost 10 friends 3 friends

left and it feel like none feels like everyone left I'm just wondering how

soon. I haven't even let loose of my pain just cut my hair off kuz I know

I'm going through a change

Sooner

This life has never been a pleasure

laying in bed asking God to clear my head

Seems like day after there's crazy weather

stood in a mirror and took a blade to my hair

pumped it full gel grease and something slick

rolled a couple of joints then took a few sips

ya life's like this if you know what bull is

ya life's like this when you know what it takes to pay the bills

cant even keep no trees on a sunny hill believe if you see green grass

You better know how to haul thator end up beef chicken and tuna

wishing somebody had warned ya sooner

had pulled you to the side and told you sooner

to change ya ways change your mind baby

Closure...

No we are not friends once more, a lot of people suggest that I settle the score.

Looking in the mirror once more, asking myself what's so important about stooping to the level of a low down whore.

Behind ones back could go down many things. Despite all things you quick to suggest how you ain't loose, and that you were brought up better than some but everyone that's been boned your trying to bone.

It takes a hoe to know a hoe at least if I do hoeish things I do them before your face not behind a closed door kuz in not ashamed to be me or low enough to seek and lay where you once came please

Public

We need to set an example for children

Smoking behind closed doors but not in front of the children

Every little black wants that new barbie but they want the light ones

With the pink smile how do you teach how to love being dark to your

child. You can't deny then toys you can't afford now that hot wheel set,

easy bake oven. There's a that sell dope giving his cash to his

main woman. She got that Burberry and body from scheming from the

government. She walking around looking like barbie in public but she aint

a doctor unless she giving head to the public.

Special clinic where they give things they don't want to the public.

The black sideline woman

I'm not the girl that caused you heartbreak
Or that begged you to settle
I'm not the one to make you angry, fight you, or call you out of your name.
I'm not the one that's after you trying to destroy your destiny your happiness or toy with your mind.
I'm simply the woman who stuck through hard times with you and listened to you complain about a thousand es. I passed up a thousand s. Loved you when you couldn't even love yourself. Fed you washed you took care of you. Knew you had a girl and still rode that out kid after kid you had I'm still standing out in your crowd.
Guess this is just a thanks I get.
Every man claims to be different but every woman goes through this . Every generation the player never gets skipped it too hard to even think that love still exists. This feeling never leaves the issue...

Corner from a block

Took a corner from the block
And look at what it did to me
What did I pocket
a city that's behind me
money constantly flowing into my pockets
like there's a ***ing bank in my pockets
I'm never out of pocket and on the 1st and 15th my squad stay tapping your pockets
And I'm chosen one the golden child
To run up in yo house and let loose Of a can ofwhooping juice
This ain't a boosie song I can't show the world show how when pull you you jumping like them cars are hurdles on your mark get ready set go smoke I just had to take a little and remind myself what this is

Took a corner from the block
And look at what it did to me
What did I pocket
a city that's behind me respect from housing property In the club yo spouse is stalking me anything ending in blvd dr ln or apt Im skating through this life so indepen...

What's a poem without a curse word?

What's a poem without a curse word? Guess I better find a cure word and who said when It comes to word play that the only words that you are allowed to use is a GOOD WORD some bad words should be used too but if all words are words isn't this discriminating to a few? Should I just say there are monkey's at the zoo or should my diction be mind grabbing and I say man there are so man mofcking monkeys , or fcking monkeys, or got damn monkeys at the zoo idk just thought I would ask you.

untitled

He asks how do you feel like a fool whoever known love can you give you the blues I sit in this bed alone hating and hoping you'll come on home knowing that I shouldn't be up this late knowing that you aint coming home till late sitting here just stuck in my own world its sad indeed that I wish I was your girl It's funny how me and him was cutting Now today he walks in my door with his shawty I must admit I was kind of embarrassed Because I'm wasting my time with you and I'm having thoughts of a common marriage with smoke flowing from a blue bong You'll never know how long karma will wait to make your heart fall and mines dropped I think this was the day my brain finally yelled stop or was it fired it yelled something indeed out of pain and tears this miserable shidd indeed I slept to 2 pm didn't go to sleep til 5 I only woke up because I felt like getting high