Haunted by the past

Haunted by the past

I put bad experiences in the past so their memories won't last.
But then it's only masked, and never truly trashed.
The illusion that the present is the solution...
That's delusion, there is no resolution.
Five grapes taste bad when one is spoiled.
A memory I had makes future ones foiled.

Any remnant of that element and sadness is eminent.
History's eternal, you'll never see the end of it.
Yet we're doomed if that memory is ever deleted,
because a memory forgotten is an action repeated.
So suppression won't decrease my depression at all.
No, digression won't prevent my regression at all.
But I guess the solution is not obsession at all.
We should use bad memories as a lesson, that's all.
 

Thank you

I was down today but now instead,
As I lay here comfortably on my bed,
One thought alone rings through my head:
I thank you God for this moment in time.
With the pressures of becoming grown,
My father who is now alone,
I still want it to be known:
I thank you God for this moment in time.
Stressing about my sister
And my mom because I've missed her,
Though 3 months I haven't kissed her:
I thank you God for this moment in time.
Crushing on this girl today,
But is she feeling me same way?
I just let go and say:
I thank you God for this moment in time.
My ambition's not being loyal,
And my car keeps leaking oil.
I drop my knees down to the soil:
I thank you God for this moment in time.
Because at this moment in time
Every single breath of mine
is regarded as divine.
I thank you God for this moment in ti...

Yesterday.

At a glance I saw her stance strolling past the bench.
So I walked up to her and said:
"Remember me?
From the far end of your classes?
You know, where the classroom trash is,
the skinny kid, always pushing up his glasses?"
She replied; after staring at my frame:
"Well I see some things have changed"
Then my snorting laughter came
"And some things stay the same."
And we free falled into recalled memories
of hee-haws and my tree tall enemies.
And as I watched her speak
I couldn't understand it;
how we spoke of different worlds
but from the same planet.
I was still awed by her presence.
Ignoring every sentence.
And all I could do is smile.
Then she smiled for a while.
and she asked:
" I'm going to get some coffee,
Do you want to come too?"
"Well I have to meet my girlfriend,
But it was nice bum...