As much as I hate itI love youBut truth isI don't want toI am ruinedBecause you werent readyI am scarredMy heart is heavyI weep for you, for usI toss and turnThe persona of loveMen became your fatherDrugs became your daughterI never understood whyYou let them strip you of thegift of being a motherBut I want you to know I no longer weep or toss and turnbecause now Ive learnedI have to forgiveI will live But I will NEVER forget