Is love an umbrella term...
...For having the highest form of admiration, appreciation, and respect for the person you are with?
If so, then I have had that kind of love before
But after nearly 9 years
She decided to detour
Desired to see the other side of the fence so she went on tour
8 years of perfected fun and enjoyment with never any annoyment
On the anniversary of the 9th year came the sexual deployment
Seeking the likings of others by whisperings and their false enjoyment
She had fatally hurt me
Nearly drove me berserk see
She came
She went
She came more than one time
Not rhythmically discussed in lust
But the word is used as a must
To show how my feelings did rust
After the many tears
Broken sheers
Stabbed a multitude of times in my ears
Her words were like daggers as she spoke of leaving
That very moment I started my year long grieving
Began to imagine if for 8 years she was deceitfully deceiving
Thought we had blessing after blessing that which we were receiving
We enjoyed all types of fun under the sun
I was her life and she was my breath
But her words were like a stake in the heart
Which caused my emotional death
One year after my grieving
I slowly began in love once again believing
But its slowly once again leaving
Away from my thoughts it is walking away
Talk it and say
Blow up my thought process
There will be no progress
I continue to digress under persistent repetitious stress
My heart will soon burst out of my chest
Unless
Someone could diverge
Help me implement and slowly converge
Help me lose the desire and urge
To be loved
The love I seek is respect
Appreciation for my unique ways
My ability to talk or listen for days
Or sit still and be silent
No one seems to appreciate who I be!
Thus I see me as a kite with a key attached flying
Getting struck by lightning and dieing
I’m tired of it always being me who is trying
I put the effort
I put the work and labor
To try to make moments to savor
I put forth my ideas and energy
To try to create seconds of synergy
And yet, I get all of the pain and the hurt
I seek gratitude for my openness
I expect someone by my side in my loneliness
I expect realness and not any phoniness
After thinking it through
I want another me and not another you!
SkTzO