I continue my trying
In the midst of my physical being that is fleeting & dieing
I know, not many care to be prying
But the fact of the matter, is that NO I ain’t lying!
I’m so sickly and weak
Yet people see me as versatile, agile, and strong
If they saw me in my private moments
They would then see they were wrong
‘Cause what people see in my every day life
Is the image I wish to secrete
I don’t want to have people to see my agony
‘Cause then they would see true defeat!
To be honest with all those who do read this
At times I do feel defeated
I have yet to give up
So for now, from this war I haven’t retreated
No white flag is thrown
To have my fears or tears shown
I will stand strong at my greatest capacity
Continue to live for my daughter and wife
With the greatest of voracity
Using my persistent tenacity
No one will be able to outlast me
Positive thinking is what continues to grasp me
So don’t ask me
It will then become a task see?!
But with the Son of God I want to bask on the glass sea!
Not allow my unhealthy circumstance
To ravage my soul like a savage and run and dance
Stab me with a negative thinking lance
Point its sheers into my hidden fears
I will run with the deer
And doe
For I well know
Who is my foe!
I know him well
And he resides in hell
In his own medicated shell
Satan
Is always human hating
With God he is always debating and berating
But God remains consistent in character
And continues His loving and consecrating
And because by faith I believe I am divinely loved
And eternally consecrated by His sacrifice
That gives me the strength to no longer think twice
I offer to God my weaknesses, my sins, and my vice
For He made me a powerful man amongst immensely weak mice
I shall forever stand tall until the day of my fall
But when I fall on that final day
That will be on Gods terms
He will determine if my body is eaten by worms
He will distinguish me between the weak germs
He will know that I believed in His son and not being saved by what I “earnâ€
So for my death I am not concerned
Because by many hard lessons I finally learned
That God loves but chastises those He loves simultaneously
And He will grant me eternal life
With endless beauty surrounding me
Beyond description unimaginably
And infinitely allow me to dwell in his presence as His spirit son
And He will forever be my source of love and light
Thus I will no longer have need of the physical sun.
And so there it is
My personal biz
It’s not like taking a pop quiz
For I show and tell it exactly how it is
So here I am
Still struggling and yet still fighting
Because in Gods love and grace
I continue all of my delighting!
SktZo