I love you but hate you at the same time
I promised myself I’d keep these feelings inside
These thoughts were never meant to see the light of day
I had them buried deep protected by lock and safe
I’m better off when I forget how much you mean to me
I welcome sleep knowing you no longer visit my dreams
Still I’m haunted by the answers that I’ll never know
Why didn’t I make this work?
Why did you choose to go?
Was it me? Or was it you? And were the rumors true?
Do you now have someone new laying next to you?
I realize now I no longer care and probably never have
If I did I would have settled down to make this last
I guess I was always more attracted to the thought of you
All of the good I thought you wereÂ
What you could blossom into
You talk a big game and I’ll admit I do the same
Four years down the drain oh what a shame
I wish there was a way for me to get my time back
I don’t need the memories you can have that
Just take me back to the night where we first metÂ
I’ll look the other way, try my best to forget
Just how beautiful you were and how much I wanted you
I’d do everything possible to stop myself from loving you
It would prevent me years later from telling lies to you
I wouldn’t feel the need now to write this final goodbye to you
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substance914 says: Deep i can relate |
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Peek InsideIf she was able to look
Inside my heart
On nights we spend apart
She would no longer wonder
With whom my loyalty lies
It would be clear as day
Exactly how much of me
She actually consumes
My heartbeat would mimic
The rhythm of her favorite song
Her laughter will echo
Throughout my eardrums
My tongue will remember
The taste of the perfume
She sprayed on her neck
The last time we made love
She would be able to trace
Her fingerprints
Up and down my spine
And feel the warmth that remains
At the spot her hands last rest
My body would not be soiled
By another woman’s touch
My mind will not be clouded
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