There is a sunshine where clouds are grey;
his smile fills my heart with praise.
I feel our lives connect everyday,
my heart feels numb as he is away.
I've not been able to see him grow and play,
but my soul walks with his from day to day.
My mind plays false realities in hopes to lead it astray.
Thoughts provoked of what might have been,
seeing a different life I could have had part in.
Multiple roads fork ahead,
why do most link to my past?
I'm lost in the regret of my ways.
My baby has my heart, with him lies my youth.
Longingly I search, to spark lasting vibrancy.
How do I move on, into a new reality?
Discard everything around me,
become totally solitary.
Wade the depths of this soul,
become undone, to be whole.