I close my eyes.
Its all black.No rainbows, no sweet thoughts.No happy fantasy.Nothing. My mind is filled with these hopeless and sad thoughts. Thoughts about my goals i never succeed.I feel empty inside.Living my life like i a robot no emotions.It feels like my body is floating in a strong flowing river.I feel no fear to die in the water because my body is already dead.Nobody knows how i really feel.I fool them with a smile.But actually fake happiness is the worst sadness. I am only fooling myself.I keep myself thinking its okay to feel like this. Thinking that happiness, luck, success and love is a privilege. I only got my sadness, its the only thing that keeps me warm at night.
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Alone with my sadness
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Alone with my sadnessI close my eyes. Its all black.No rainbows, no sweet thoughts.No happy fantasy.Nothing. My mind is filled with these hopeless and sad thoughts. Thoughts about my goals i never succeed.I feel empty inside.Living my life like i a robot no emotions.It feels like my body is floating in a strong flowing river.I feel no fear to die in the water because my body is already dead.Nobody knows how i really feel.I fool them with a smile.But actually fake happiness is the worst sadness. I am only fooling myself.I keep myself thinking its okay to feel like this. Thinking that happiness, luck, success and love is a privilege. I only got my sadness, its the only thing that keeps me warm at night. |