It’s crazy because I’ve only been here six weeks and I’m already experiencing drama stress an some more bull it’s as if no matter what I say or what I do nothing ever seems to change rather it is good or bad….I don’t even know any more please tell me what’s real because I can’t tell what’s fake all these lies and deception around me people are wearing ugly masks to scare me but I won’t be pulled or fuelled nor will I be swayed by darkness to cover my heart because it will make me into a different person that wouldn’t give a damn about them or their problems the only people I would care about is me myself and gizmo I don’t want it to be like that but people are making it harder than it already is so imma take a deep breathe an deal with it because that’s life people are always going to be fake, always going to be mean there is always going to be a little darkness in somebody’s heart maybe one day there will be peace in my heart but until then it’s on lock down completely no more games I am not the same so please stop that lame ish stop that game ish this place is low key like boot camp in away because you have instructor’s and teachers to help you out but from a distance an you know they got your back like a white bitter but for me I still don’t trust nobody here as far as am concerned there are all my enemies until they show me otherwise but even then I still won’t trust them no way I wouldn’t I couldn’t smh what was I thinking just now putting my faith and trust in some strangers
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