Twenty years a slave I did what was told
Gave what was not owed Hung my neck out for those who would let me fall in vein Stood up for those how would willingly forget my name I've hide my pain Buried it in the depths of my most regrettable shame I've taken punishment despite the sights projected at my backside Took rides against my better nature forced myself to believe it was nobility In truth it was to satisfy someone else's comfortability In conversations I have let words die so that egos could have a better chance at feeling alive Forced to starve so they can eat, stood cold so they can retain heat, stood silent while watching bullet shred through meat Suffered the brutalness of a farewell kiss As I walked a straied fool to believe true love does exist I became a slave to enslave ways addicted to the non rebuttal as I stood in tears and blood poured on to the moments and years til they formed puddle A slave I've become to my sexual tendencies which left me with a unfulfillable need to scour dreams in search for pornographical nymphoed fiends to justify what once was so simple complex things I'm a slave to the blurry picture of hoping to reach a better way to start a better day better use of words to use to utter have a better day a better hug to give to say I cherish this day a better kiss to give to say you take my breath away or to fall short on cheeks, to say I love the way we greet, a better way to just say I wish we could love like the old days Yes I'm twenty years a slave to all my vices and ways I was born and will die 20+ years a slave....
Royale jones
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LP45 says: Very powerful. Great write! |
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