suicidal thoughts (soul take flight)

replaced

 excuse my yness you created a monster

You thought u was the one n only i just added u to the roster

No longer do i stress about the things you do

Emotionally i checked out months ago and it was all cuz you

Ive been told in every joke there is some truth

U see where all those jokes have gotten you

i couldnt have been more loyal

But when it comes to us your water im oil

I rise to the top we can never blend together

Everything must come to an end nothing last forever

And as im looking at this experation date

Less and less i stop believing it was fate

Every cconversation becomes a debate 

Every ***ed up action is deemed a mistake

Im sick and tired of cleaning his slate

I shouldve seen this from the gate

But back then i was youg minded and use to you playing games

But now i see

Youre no star in my galaxy

You hardly shine any...

cut off

It only takes one thing to Get u cut off

so if u choose to play games it'll be ur loss

Homeboy ur a lame far from a boss

Can care less about our history

No explination in ur mind it will remain a mystery

Im too good to keep getting low key played

Holding on to the past is why i always stayed

But im tired of giving u chance after chance

truth is u far from a man

In life you will never advance

Grown man with no goals

Let me know how far that there goes

scattered thoughts

trails and tribulations

miles of seperation

egos clash due to frustration

which leaves me cut off from this cold cold world

you want my love but baby boy i am not your girl

temporary feelings

sexual healing

my emotions are taking a beating

listen as my soul crys

tryna hold on but this love been died

years ago

i let go

but was still giving you the best of me

unanswered phone calls  desaster was our reciepe

so i moved you out that spot you held so dear

its over aint no other ways to make it clear

u say im wrong

singing the same ol song

forgivness is a one time thing

loyalty is now missing

nothing left but distance

stay in your place and ill stay in mine

dont worry about me i will be fine

just know i will forever view everything you say as lies

suicidal thoughts (soul take flight)

if it wasnt for baby girl

my soul wouldve lifted from this world

i know things could be worse

but imagine if you bottle in all that hurt

and all the sudden every emotion just spilled out the bottle

cold hearted that spot hollowed

i only feel joy when i see my lil girls smile

its like time stops i feel complete for a while

but then im over come with anger and rage

since shes been born i locked those feelings in a cage

family is always beefing and my friends i cant trust them

being betrayed ive become acustom

to the hurt cuz that the only thing thats been consistant

i think back to the day i took them pills but my soul never lifted

i begged god to take this pain away

but i guess it was in his plans that here i must stay

i should be happy for all that ive got

but all i wanted was someone to confide in am i asking for alot?

its hard to be tru...

lies

Im hurt their is no way around that truth 

Im mad at myself i shouldve known better then to trust u

To do the right thing

How dare you clain to be a man u don't know the first thing

I threw those emotions out the door

Thats right cuz love. certainly doesnt live here anymore

What happen to loyalty staying true to those whi had you back

Cuz truth be told the way you handled things was wack

But i was stupid for expecting any different 

White make and a red nose is all ur missing

Youre a clown no rythm scheme no punches

Ill smoke this pain away pass me some sour n dutches

Last thing i need is another fake person around me

Kick rocks with ssandals on till yo feet bleed

Lies on top of lies i dried your eyes

When those others left you to die i gave u life

Showed you i cared i got nothing to show for 7 years wasted

I bet them hoes happy now the...

fake friend

im not interested in your lies

i keep it brief with you once i realize

that behind that smile is a plan for my dimise

see i seen it all along

trying to find my weakness but the stench of jealousy hits me strong

your cover has been blown wondering where you went wrong?

the same ones you gossip with gossip with others

you worried about drama im busy working and being a mother

but the hate continues

i dont believe those lies you tell i just pretend to

your swag is a facade

your beauty a mirage

because once you show your true colors everyone see how really ugly you are

i still cant understand why you low key hate on me

claim we thick a thieves

but i am far from nieve

so ill pose for pictures and be a pretend friend

but the truth always comes out in the end

but