This time it is persistent and elusive.
The darkness forces its will upon me,
My weakness its strength.
It declares war with my emotions, my thoughts.
Forces me to fight on a front I never prepared to defend.
It turns happiness into sadness, taking away all hope.
Trying despritely to extinguish my light.
It begins to rain, tears of defeat, as I fall.
This battle to strong to fight, lost.
I see the light in you, and try to grasp it,
but the darkness masks it, as you make to attempt to reach out to me.
In solitude the darkness forces me into sorrow,
a deep pain of worthlessness.
A feeling of lost time, lost love.
The once Star that radiated its light from my core,
making my space in the universe known, is out.
A black hole is all that remains, a deep abyss.
Sucking away any happiness and hope from my soul,
leaving me once again broken, powerless, alone.
I long for your affection, your attention.
Maybe if I could feel you closer I could drive the darkness away.
But detachment is all i feel.
I know that with your love, I could once again shine.
Shine as bright as the stars, my core once again illuminated.
But i feel as if i am meaningless you the world and to you,
feel as if my presence is tolerated, not desired.
And weather or not that is true, it only aids the darkness in its siege.
But until asked to leave i will stay by your side, and love you.
Allow you to grow, and maybe one day, the darkness will fade,
And we can truely be one.
Maybe one day you will show me my worth,
And free me from this darkness.