Suicidal Thoughts

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In a room full of people I feel alone

Its like no one understands me

They can't see these tears in my eyes

They don't even know all the times I've cried

Thinking about ending my life to soon

Thoughts in my mind of unfulfilled dreams

Feeling like I never lived up to my true potential

These circumstances are messing with my mental

Hopes and Faith fading away

Tired of dealing with the same thing everyday

LOST

And it seems like I can't be found

So what's the point of me sticking around

So as I sit here alone in this dark room with a bottle full of pills in my hand

Contemplating if this is really what I want

Tears flooding my eyes as I cover my head

I can't deal with all these problems, that's what I said

All hope is lost I don't know who I am anymore

Scrambled up words running through my brain

They make no sense

Ziggity, Zit, Split, Slippy, Zat, Tat

Hold on

What the f*** is that

I'm so messed up I can't even get my mind on track

Pacing back and forth from wall to wall

And out of the blue I began to fall

Straight to my knees

Than I began to pray

I cried out

Father please

I'm in need of your help

I don't know what I'm doing

I need you to give me strength or else I'll be ruined

Because I feel weak today like I can't go on

I really wanna do this even though I know its wrong

But I feel like I'm facing this world alone

So many problems

I'm unhappy in my home

Then all of a sudden I felt chills down my spine

And out the blue everything made sense

God gives his hardest battles to his strongest warriors

And I must not quit because I'm about to have a breakthrough

YES LORD, I CAN HEAR YOU SPEAK TO ME SHOW ME THE WAY

I give all my problems to you TODAY

I know that you will see me threw

I'm sorry for not believing in you

Please forgive me for going astray

Now I've realized today ain't my day