Dear son,
I can't begin to explain how many years
you'ved carried so much pain,
I can't say that I understand,
I was busy living life in the fast lane.....
I understand if you have hate for me,
I have no one else to blame but myself....
I'm pretty sure you'd agree, you dont blame no one else.
I should have been there as,
Your father, your protector, your friend,
But I was scared to step up to the plate,
scared to be a man.
I know that's not an excuse, your mom
raised you and your brothers,
she did things I was scared to,
depending on very few.
I'm sure you have so many questions that need's answers,
which you have every right to want answers,
"Why didn't I stand up as a man"? "Why didn't I live up to a real man's standards"?
I'm just going to be honest...and tell you I didn't care to put in the effort....
I've missed so much of your life,
causing you many disappointments, mixed emotions
filled with strife,
making it hard to deal with life.
I can't take it back, or change things that happend in the past,
But I'm here now trying to fix our past,
I'm begging you for forgiveness thats all I can ask.
You don't have to answer right now, I know you see me as a loser,
a man with no heart, a man that couldn't play his part,
but I'm crying out to you for a new start.
Love always: A Regreful Dad.
(Inspired by, a close friend and a conversation that took place with his father
Thanks for permission to write on your behalf...Love you!)