SoFloetic

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Impatiently Waiting for you

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life

I think about you

Everynight and everyday

Hoping that you are doing alright

Because I know those walls are closing in tight

I know it's hard for you being away from the ones you love

Wishing I could just give you a hug

Kiss your lips and tell you everything is going to be ok

But I know I can't and that really tears me apart

Wishing that you would have never made that choice

To do what you did to land you there

And sometimes at night it haunts me in my dreams

Eternity is how long it seems

And sometimes I can't help but be mad

Feeling like you shoulda thought about the family you had

Sometimes I just wanna scream at you and say

"WHAT ABOUT US, DON'T YOU KNOW WE GOTTA DO THIS TIME WITH YOU I NEED YOU HERE TO HELP ME PULL THROUGH"

but I know I gotta refrain myself

Because none of that will change the situation at hand

So I just smile and tell you I'm doing the best I can

I encourage you and tell you it will be over soon

I don't tell you about how I cry at night

Wishing you were there to hold me tight

I try to stay positive

I don't wanna be your burden to bear

Because I know its hard enough with you being in there

I don't tell you about how im barely getting by

How the kids and I are hardly making ends meet

Scraping to get by

So to speak

Because your hustler mentality will start to kick in

And I don't want you doing anything to keep in there longer

So I simply say "How are you doing dear, No need to worry everythings good here. You know I got you, imma hold it down, Everything is great I miss you much. The bills are paid the kids are fine. Stay encouraged and make sure you pray, and before you know it it will be touchdown day"

I lie to you to help you pull through

But the truth is

I'm impatiently waiting for you

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		darylg44 says: Love this Floetic. This is so emotional it breaks my heart just reading it. I love your writing style poems by this commentor Those Eyes Breathe I Was Just Leaving
		2b2b2 says: Fantastic Work (as usual).....Write On! poems by this commentor Immaterial Wealth 2b Gained Precepts & Concepts Love A Universal Love Sighting
		royale jones says: My lord woman that was deep great poem indeed thank you for sharing! poems by this commentor years in the stretch Notes in a reflection thou shall know me
		DallasCowgirl says: I DEFINITELY know this feeling!

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