im so lost in space vanished no trace - life crippled from decrace man with no face - so far from grace so manny mistakes -tring so hard to mainten it boggils my brain - an every one stairing is driven me insain - i will nevr b e able to look at my self the same - all the blam is on me so how can i speek - i expect everyone to turn there back on me - im not going to pull a cris (sucide) but i got to leave - this death i had comming to me - this is so much more worse then beeing 6 feet deep - i feel igroant for getting to breath - i might as well be deceast - hoppfully someone will end it for me - the way i see it im beneth feceise - i wish enteral peace for everyone that has ever cared for me - im sorry for my catatsphtrafy!!!!!!!!!!!!!