close to death

Out Side The Box

i've been writing tragied for way to long ~ it's a must i swich gears with this poem ~ i might even hit the bong ~ stop and smell the flowers for reasons unknowen ~ chill out from these streets i love to roam ~ turn on the music hit the bass an get in the zone ~ i realy hope the speekers dont get blowen ~ bro pass me the bottle its time to get gone ~ curagious words comen from this pain guard your dome ~ i don't care if im steppen out the box solo ~ i been traped in my shell for to long this you already know ~ im backon top of my game an i ant leaven that post ~ i ant sayen im the best but if you commen you better go for the guesto ~ im switch up my styles so much im going for broke ~ inter peace is what i found along the road ~ my mindes so clear how can you harm a goast ~ everybody get on my level i'll be the host  ~ just dont get out of line dropp and get caught by the rope ~ other then that sit back an coast ~ besides your kid...

im back

im back purer then rare form ~ jumpen off my back i ant hurten any more~  the fire back burnen in side ~ be my guest add feel an stoke an make it  hotter then lova when come back on um ~ its gonna get done ~  the fights back it leaven no longer~ jugmentday came in left an i stayed ~ so going to rain on your praid if you get in my way ~  im on a mission to see my son so we can play ~  

pureskills23 for you

pureskills look at this lil boy thinking he big bills ~ this pup don't know how life really is ~I was just sitting back takin care of my busisness ~ until Jnxy opened my eyes to a guy who thinks he fly ~ now i gotta spaz out lash out an tear his mouth out ~  end the words coming from that lil snob ~ I'm a rookie to poetry vibe but i see already you ain't that guy ~  yeah i read some from your kiddish increments got me chuckin ~ now I'll start your repercussions ~ it's over for you and everything you thought you had ~ come back in ten years and you might not be that bad ~ so go sit back in the corner and put your helmet back on lil dude and quit makin daddy scold you ~ and leave the grown man discussions for us to discuss 

am i gods son or saitnes angle

am i gods son or saitens angle~whats left of my soul is filled with anger~ can u sence the danger from this stranger~maybe one of these days ill right a happy verse~ but untill then its gonna hafta hurt~ i ant holding nothen back so be on high alurt~ but restasure ill make it work~ poetry vibe is now my life untill i get in the booth one more time~ if you understand stick bye my side~ if you dont you will in time~ and maybe this poem will save your life~ i use to be a simple man now im without a plan~ it happend so fast my downward spiral~ now i dont even know how im going to eat tomarrow~ a good friend of mine tried to save my life~ i can still see his face with tears comming from his eyes~ ill always rember that day i knew how he felt inside~ i can apolise a million times but ital never replace how he felt that day~  ever sence i waz a lil kid i felt~ like i waz a desrace to the human race~ i pray to god to save my life an if i die defor i wake~ keep the cassie closed i do...

emotional over flow

gog i realy need your help right now~ your son feel way out of boncse~ its times like these you wish for commen grounds~ but the only thing you get is kick around especaly when your your down~ i came to the relisisation people love seening you frown~ i realy wish someone will love me now~ instead of pointing anlaffing like im  a clown~ thats probly the reason i feel alone in mittes of a crowed~ deprestions walked alone side of me for so long he feels like a pall~ people say imim running to my death, but where the one tring to slow me down~ i dont think that person will ever be found~ i wounderhow manny people would cry when they put me in the ground~ but i refuss to take the easy way out~ even thow id be such a pleaser to me to no longer greave~ so ill just put my heart on my sleave, its going to be whats its going to be~ an at the end we will see if we fufilled are destany~all i ever wanted is peace in tranqity~ i just dont think its for me~ but if my son finds it i will ha...

close to death

I'm so lost in space vanished no trace - life crippled from disgrace man with no face - so far from grace so many mistakes - trying so hard to maintain it boggles my brain - and everyone staring is drivin me insane - I will never be able to look at myself the same - all the blame is on me so how can I speak - I expect everyone to turn their back on me - I'm not going to pull a Chris (sucide) but I got to leave - this death I had coming to me - this is so much more worse then being 6 feet deep - I feel ignorant for getting to breathe - I might as well be deceased - hopefully someone will end it for me - the way I see it I'm beneath fecese - I wish internal peace for everyone that has ever cared for me - I'm sorry for my catastrophe!!!!!!!!!!!!!

close to death

im so lost in space vanished no trace - life crippled from decrace man with no face - so far from grace so manny mistakes -tring so hard to mainten it boggils my brain - an every one stairing is driven me insain - i will nevr b e able to look at my self the same - all the blam is on me so how can i speek - i expect everyone to turn there back on me - im not going to pull a cris (sucide) but i got to leave - this death i had comming to me - this is so much more worse then beeing 6 feet deep - i feel igroant for getting to breath - i might as well be deceast - hoppfully someone will end it for me - the way i see it im beneth feceise - i wish enteral peace for everyone that has ever cared for me - im sorry for my catatsphtrafy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

From the Alpha to the Omega

In the beginning we was playin like lil kids

Still tellin our dad's them lil fibs

On the verge of seeing what life really is

Only time we screamed when we was on drunk

Lookin at girls like I wanna *** that

Started fightin bein loud basically bein ignorant

Lookin up to thugs makin it look glamorous

We shoulda changed when we we had our kids

But we didn't we was still on foolishness

Baby mamas crashed our innocents

Good friends left for various situations

Some in the grave some in the pen it'sthe same

As time goes pain ain't stopped we still starin down the cliff

Why was we meant  to go through this

It feels like the trauma is endless

But I know one thing for sure we will never split

Not even death will make this friendship say rip

I just needed to say while I had a chance

Cuz we never know when we going to have our final dance

Walk your own pattern

I'm so lost in the abyss

It seems like everytime I swing I miss

I recognize everyone that give me a kiss

I ain't meaning to trip life is such a

Ignorant days seen my life flip

I see myself standing in the mist

Asking God what's the purpose for me to exist

The more days I live the more torturous it gets

A handful of true friends stay by my side

But it's the other mother***ers that make me want to ride

Should I swallow my pride and take everything in stride

Or should I put everything on the table and let it all fly

If that happens a lot of people going to mentally

and possible physically die

I'm tired of people only getting ahold of me

When bad happen take care of your own matters

And walk you own pattern

my release

If silence hides violence I have no right to speak - and these streets taught me to consistently creep - and my mind goes deep like a shrink who can't sleep - Im going through so much pain I just want to weep - and it's the ignorancy in me that makes me believe - I can be way more then I can ever achieve - I just wanna know why I do ignorant things - and after the time's over I just wanna scream - really I just wanna sing, write music and live my dreams - but it seems it's way out of my reach not meant in my destiny - I'm just going to close my eyes an stretch for the peak - hopefully that kills the demons that run through me - I just wanna have my son proud of me - and be the baby daddy she needs me to be - so failing is no longer in my vocabulary!