You were never there
From my fast walkOr the first time i talked You never even toke me to my first day at schoolYou are a donor You gave my mother the sperm to impregnate her So you are no one I dont know yur last name or first Neither do i know the tone of your skin or the colour of you eyes It was you who left me and my mother to fend for ourselves You are an excuse You dont deserve blessings god may give youYou are the cause for my heart ache you are the cause for my anger You are wah im supposed to call father You, you were there You fed me You held me You came to the scan my mother had Never did you belittle me for me to question my existence on this earthYou loved me You questioned my first love You helped me with my school workYou fed me You clothed me You taught me from right to wrong Even wen i was bad you showed me the right lane to go I looked up to you You caused my happiness You gave me a reason to smile You didn't need to be a donor You are my dad People may question the conclusion i have come to But its not for them to sayI am the one who can chose No matter if my father came back He will not have to privilege to bear his name Dad No he will for ever be in the category of being a sperm donor Father or dad I know the difference And which one is bad
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chispoken says: I have been in a similar situation and I must say that healing comes in time. A nice vent though. |
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