My eyes and their hurtful lies
As they show me a face familiarBut I know this is one they never truly knewAnd though from afarThese eyes of mineAffixed to this face in my likeness I now seeI’m as sure as the day is longThis face I see never desired to know meAnd though you don’t see from where you standI speak to you aloud as if you canYou’re that carbon copy of a manThe original author of meWho owns all my featuresYour only job to do what she couldn’tTo enlighten and make this boy a manBut I no longer obsess with why you wouldn’tBecause now it’s too lateI’m already brokenAs a child, instead of with you I sat hopingAnd threw my ball against a loveless wallWhile you were on the first train smokin’YouSo unwillingAnd IYour unworthy seedRegrettably stamped with your miserable sealYou’ve been a regular collector of dust in my mind’s projectorAnd the primary reason I no longer feelSo nowAs I see your disloyal smile Wide as the NileHolding what I can only assume the hand of your replacement childI convince myself to let go and live freeBut this fever in my heart will make a troublesome fresh startJust knowing That should have been meCopyright © 2014 by Daryl R. Gaines. All rights reserved
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The Immortal Wize says: Damn good!! |
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darylg44 says: Thank you Wize. Thankful and appreciative |
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2b2b2 says: Poignant Share....loving your work.....ONE!! Thanks for sharing..... |
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darylg44 says: Thanks 2b I appreciate that |
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Phenomenal Paris says: Wow.. Speechless.. I can not even find the right words to say! I guess simply amazing will do. |
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darylg44 says: thanks so much Paris. Your words move me |
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jsmorris says: poetic work of art nice write poet |
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darylg44 says: Thank you that means a lot. Much love |
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DallasCowgirl says: Always a blessing to read your words, bro! |
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