It's Like I Don't Even Know Who I Am Anymore, When I Put Myself In Perspective Across The Floor. The Newer Me Is Supposed To Be Key, But It's The Things That I Do I Can't Bear To See. When All You Do Is Try, And Only Succeed To Fail. It's The Excuses I Make, That Create My True Tale. I Try Endlessly To See Who I Am, Without The People Or Social Glam. But All In All It's A Big Brusque Lie, Sometimes I Wonder Why Bother Try. Should I Just Go With The Flow, And All The Burden I Tote? But No That's Not Me Either, So I Can't Sail In That Boat. But After All The Confusion, It's All An Illusion. Because I Can't Take All Of Me, And Make It All A Fusion. So I Continue To Trek, On This Destined Road. In Hopes Only To Find, My Glad Mental Abode.
MyCatIsBeast
 3100 
|
|||||||||||||||||||||
you need to login or register to leave a comment
The Curse
CATEGORY
life
Views: 224
You must be registered to leave a comment. Registration is FREE.
COMMENTS
Wordman21 says: Nice, Very Nice |
|||
|
2b2b2 says: Great Share...travel on is a must....Namaste |
OTHER POEMS WRITTEN BY MyCatIsBeast
Life Story Part OneI Wake Up In The Morning And I Step Outside And I Take A Deep Breath, "Why Am I Still Alive?" Another Day Goes Bye, And I'm Just Waiting To Die So I Try, But I Can't Fathom Why, So I Cry, Until I Cannot Stand By My Side, Cause Inside It Just Hurts, But My Pride Makes It Worse, So I Hide And Abide By My Fragile State Of Mind, So I'm Blind To The Crime That Is My Very Life, So This Night With This Knife I Will End All This Strife. Is It Right? Do I Care? Cause I'm Living My Life, But I'm Not Living To Be Here, I Am Living In Spite, And Despite What I Write I Will Get Through The Night, And My Plight Shall Live On, So That I Do More Wrong, So I Continue To Compose Another Sad Swan Song, I Have It In Me, To Bring Myself Down On One Knee, And Take Away What Hurts Me, And Ironically That's Me, But I'm Fine Take Your Time Because I Am The Bad Guy. I'm Invisible, Deplorable, Sickening And Horrible, Degrading, Ignorable, Hell's Rei...  |
Self Righteous Martyr (Unfinished)Dear God, Please Forgive Me For What I'm About To Do, But Lately I've Been Thinking Why Not Live With You, In The Sky Like You, I'll Be High Like You, Can I Die For You? Can I Confide In You, Can I Provide In Due Time This Small Crime By Quarter To Nine Is That Fine? Because Life Is Faster Than Time, And Time Has Run Out In Mine, And I Can No Longer Define The Line Between Living And Dying, I'm Running And Trying, Falling And Crying, God I'm Not Lying, What Death Is Selling I'm Buying. No Time To Explain, It Sounds Insane, But Life Is My Bane, And I Am To Blame, Because You See God, I Can Longer Handle The Pain... |
Chasing Myself"You Better Whisper Not Another Mumbled Word, This A Torture Like You've Never Seen Or Heard. It's Coming Fast You Should've Quickly Learned, Not To Be So Blind (You'll Love The Suffering I Have In Mind). I Start To Shake And I Feel So Breathless, Nothing Pointing To What Possibly Could End This. Its Closing In How Could I Not Have Seen This Coming. This Agony Of Mine, I Want To Leave It All Behind. I Want A Second Chance To Shine, There's Not A Chance To Escape This Time. It's In The Corridor Right Now Chasing Me Down, I'm Wondering Where I Could Possibly Hide Now. It's Quickly Gaining On Me, No Chance To Do What I Need To. I Feel It Pulling On Me, How Can It Grab What Is See Through As I'm Thinking What Comes Next. This Agony Of Mine, I Want To Leave It All Behind. I Want Another Chance To Shine, But I Can Tell There's No Escaping This Time. It's Has Me In It's Grasp And It Is Squeezing, The Pain Assures Me I Am Never Leaving... |
Shared AnguishI Know A Girl Who Looks For Love In All The Wrong Places, |
Regret'Dedicated To A Friend Of Mine, I Hope Things Pick Up.' |
A Letter To Myself ( Censored )Dear Aiden, |
The PromiseI Sit And Begin Reminiscing About My Childhood And Notice, There Was A Father Missing. I Never Blamed You, I Always Blamed Another, I Even Stooped So Low As To Blame My Own Mother. It Wasn't Mine, My Sister's, Or My Brother's Fault , You Should've Taken Responsibility Because You're A Full Grown Adult. You Hurt Me Bad, But I'm Not Sad Because You're Not Here So I Hate What We Never Had. You Don't Write Or Bother To Call And Sometimes I Wonder If You Were Real At All. You Sit In My Thoughts As My Love For You Rots, The Pain's Grip Is Tighter Than My Stomach Full Of Knots. The Void Was Here With Me More Than You Ever Were, And Now That I've Stopped Thinking Your Memory Fades To A Blur. |
The HealingFunny How We Were Friends And Now This Is How It Ends, Hatred Caused By A Girl Who Spread Nothing But Bad Trends. I Guess It Doesn't Matter How Much Time With Someone One Spends, Because Now No Matter What I Do There's No Making Amends. I'm Sorry I Did What I Did And Said What I Said, I'm Sorry I Didn't Listen To What You Had To Say Instead. I Was Too Busy Trying To Help You From The Perspective Of My Head, Because Now I Know That It Was Wrong And Now Our Good Times Are Dead. I Thought I Was Doing What Was Only Right, But Instead It Caused Us To Spit Venom And Fight. At The End Of The Night, I Admit I Did Some Stuff Out Of Spite And I Apologize Because Now It's Too Late For Teary Eyes. We Weren't Blood But You Were Sure As Hell My Brother, It Doesn't Matter If You Didn't Come Out Of My Mother Because We Were Blood In My Mind I Wouldn't Have Picked Any Other, But Now It's Too Late Because Of My Heartfelt Blunder. |
The RevivalLittle Do You Know That This Poetry I Grow Keeps Me Going Til' The End Of The Night, Because If I Didn't Write Then Who Knows And Who Might Guess What Goes Down. It'd Be Me In A Box Colored Brown Going Into The Ground Followed By Tears And No Sound, I'd Be Wearing A Thorned Crown And On My Lap Would Be Satan's Hound Because I Know That I'm Hellbound. I Don't Care Can't Go Back Now All I Can Do Is Scream Loud About How God Won't Answer Me And Probably Thinks, " Man He's Too Damned For Me." Meanwhile I Cry And Plead Please God One More Chance For Me, "I'll Change I Swear I Will There's No Need For The Torture If I Go Nice Or Get Killed No Blood Will Be Spilled From This Day Forth I'm On A Course To Rebuild With No Source Of Evil Creed I'll Bury My Maliciousness Like A Sown Seed." It's Why I Write Or Fly Forget Ride Or Die I'll Do What I Please Before I Drown In Blood Seas. But Now I Wait For The Day Where Writing Wasn't Enough, The Day Anger Killed Without Thought And No Love.... |
The PainTwisted And Terrible These Thoughts Unbearable, The Thought Of Still Caring Makes My Heart Uncharitable. I Wanna Quit I'm Sick Of The Because If Someone Else Tells Me Whats Up, They're Getting Hit And Their Head Split With A Chainsaw I'll Cut Them To Bits Raw And Keep Their Jaw As A Souvenir Of All The Teeth I Rammed Down Their Maw For Awe. You Want To Play I'll Play Back Rough Don't Like It Then That's Tough, How Come Whenever I Say Enough Is Enough You Keep Pushing Me Further And Call It A Bluff, But When I Do It You Want Me In Cuffs Cause I'm A Bad Man And A Sad Man Who Needs To Be Helped And Locked Up. I'm Not A Bad Guy Don't Ask Me Why People Decide To Spread Lies Because When Doves Cry Then Hope Dies Just Like The Darkness On Days Where I Feel Fine, So Treat Me Different In A Better Way And You'll Find Maybe I'll Live That Extra Day And You'll Notice The Sun Has A Brighter Shine. |