All it took was one time.
One time then she conceived your child.
She gave what I couldn't give.
She have what I been trying for years to have.
Your seed, your child.
I am so filled with envy and rage!
How could a chick who didn't mean a thing produce a child the first time around?
This is like a slap in my face!
I tried and I tried for years and the outlet wins in the end.
Check mate she scores.
One point for the whore.
She won the battle but I win the war.
She have your seed but I will forever have your heart.
One time, one time, all it took was one look and I knew the baby was yours.
Her face is of your face.
How could something so beautiful cause me so much pain when looking upon her face?
People tell me, I should just walk away but it's not that easy.
I'm not walking away from the man I love because of a decision he made.
I'm not going to hate his baby's mother because she was use and thought a baby would take him away.
I feel sorry for the baby, she don't deserve to be place in this messy situation.
I am modern Sarai, he is my not so bright Abram.
Who ever thought the biblical days would apply to modern day.
I am between a rock and a hard place.
I want to be selfish and cruel, tell him, he have to choose, either he erase this baby and her mother or me he lose.
I am ashamed that I even consider that an option.
I was once the girl who father abandoned, I can not dare be the reason this beautiful baby share the same faith.
How do I separate my feelings, my pride for the baby and my relationship sake?
Phenomenal Paris
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ToothPick3 says: This was well written mami you did your thing. Continue with words like this. It's gonna take you places |
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Phenomenal Paris says: Thank you so much, your kind words just helped me snap back to reality. Thank you |
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DallasCowgirl says: This piece is one of the realest that I have read on the Vibe. Don't stop writing! |
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