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i am alone....

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life

This bible thing isn't working this kill blunt isn't strong enough to taccle my problems this drink isn't helping me clear my vision everything is all wrong everyday isn't suppose to be painful the simple things are really starting to get to me how is that i can walk six cites in eighteen hours and twentytwo mins an not give up but when it comes to looking for jobs going to school being successful writing or making music it seems impossible for me to even complete these tasks i am more then ready to give up i was just preaching to a friend a few hours ago about not giving up an to go chase they dreams but i can't even take my own damn advise everything is really getting to me and facebook instagram kik ain't making it no better for me i just seen a 17 year girl trying to overdose on several things of pills because of what she's going threw it's really messed up but in a way i Salut her i understand where she's coming from this hurt this pain is to damn great for me to bare i can read the bible 247 but the devil trys to attacc my mind to get me distracted most of the time i really don't get it and it just feels like I'm talking to myself anxiety attaccs confusion depression clouds my better judge ment and to make things worse I'm constantly stressing just last night i wanted to fight just to take out my anger i have a short tempter anger problems jealousy issues another side of me that no one knows about and the best thing people can say is pray about it smoke some weed drink some liquor take some pills write it out do you i want help i need help but i rather just have people leave me the fucc alone i could cry right now if i had any tears left in me all you see is a blank expression in all do respect i apologize if you wasn't ready to ready this because i know that no one is going to read this reply or respond to this the life of a 21 failure who choose to live life because death is to easy

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		Phenomenal Paris says: Wooooowwww. I know what you feel. Our struggles, our pain, is not to break us but make us. I'm 21 as well and sometimes I feel like saying f life but then I think about how far God has bought me. The best way to retaliate against the devil is to always think of the struggle you thought you would never overcome, your success, and your blessings. You are doing the right thing by expressing yourself in a constructive way. poems by this commentor Admiration Until Then Maybe I Will Learn
		2b2b2 says: Keep your head up and wait for another day to start anew, and if that don't work out, try to make it another day and keep at it my man, just try to leave the failures to yesterday cuz each day awake is another chance....ONE poems by this commentor Natural Anthem Expansion Melodrama
		The Immortal Wize says: all good advice...Keep on Flowin poems by this commentor It's Time Keep From Turning Shots & Pot

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Unityx2

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forcibly removed from their home's generations upon generations erased those kids those babies they never even stood a chance & the aftermath of it all is something that words can't even begin to describe

and to add more fuel to the fire this is happening in multiple places around the world seems like our voices aren't enough our anger isn't enough our government is supporting & aiding in all of these genocides

giving away billions of dollars doing the very opposite of what the people been asking for literally giving them more guns more ammunition locations the whole nine these countries streets are filled & paved in blood

schools, hospitals completely obliterated. In...

Emotion #5

There's no telling what I crave or what I desire maybe the answer to them both is nothing if I'm being truly honest it's been a while since I've felt any emotions maybe there's been a great disconnect there it doesn't

bother me too much if anything it's like nostalgia familiarity even. I've felt this way since I was a kid guess the feelings enhanced overtime. Losing you,you you you you you and you & you and so many others loses and

other things I've never spoken of I guess my internal hell and the place I called paradise is one on the same *solitude* being disconnected from everything and everybody has gotten me out of touch with a lot of emotions

I find myself in situations where I just don't wanna be be bothered. These people aren't feeling me the irony of it all I just be minding my ugly business and someone beautiful comes along and disrupts the flow

with bad i...

Who you?

To make a long complicated story short my name is zenkai! I was mentally born in 2k16 during the start of what he now considers the

worst years of his life i met this man when he was 24k years old he didn't have much of nothing going on in his life at the time in his words

it was all unnecessary bs at the time he had enrolled himself into college word on the street was he was having a kid on the way and that

sparked his life drastically he got off his a** and went to work he had two jobs & was officially going to college then things change...

On my knees begging for forgiveness

Peace that surpasses all understanding is something I want more than anything in the world

but how do I achieve so peace? Do I pray? Do I spend the rest of my life in solitude?

do I sober up and maintain a clear mind?

How exactly can I achieve such peace?

What would I need to sacrifice in order to obtain it what exactly can I give you that don't have already?

My vanity

This is my life so why do I dought that?

Could this really be my life live or I'm I just lying to myself again

by all means I should have lost my life on a few occasions but

for whatever I'm still here I don't feel whole though

if anything I'm more empty than ever my mind grows

silent my heart darkens by the day I may not cause trouble

but that doesn't mean I never get in trouble

Vanish

What does it mean to be free?

what is freedom?

are we really shackled and bound to this thing called life?

we're taught to respect and cherish the life we have because

we only get one & too many people get a chance to experience it

the more I think about it the harder it is to comprehend.

Sound frame

Draining...the emotion right out of me seaking to find what's precious to you then leaving as if you were Never there like so many before you with each breath being taken it feels like fighting a dragged out fight All that fighting To be champion of nothing That title is unbefitting of someone who deserves more Cold as fresh steal as I watch everything fade towards the baccground ahh Here we are once again the void, darkness and myself enchanting moments like this is what I was destined for creating situations that lead to nothing and absorbing the aftermath of it all increasing the volume and mass within thine self. ã‹ how many times must I be in this position time & I playin chess negotiations for better moves are on the table time trying be slicc and confusing by telling me not to rush.. the moves are all mine with the smerk on it's face every move is more critical than the Next where the stakes can cost more than just your life yet here I am (again) it's hard to make...

Roses that aren't for me

Smoking on this black and mild trying to find the words

To speak to god and to let him know what's been Going on in recent events of my life

he's probably Disappointed in me can't blame him for it through

I'm disappointed in myself to in just five month's

I lost my job, my best friend, found out that after

A year and some change that the kids that i love Aren't mine,

damn near lost my sanity, nearly drowned In depression,

almost let my anger consume me and Thought about taking my own life away

the unnecessary pain and sacrifices that I've Indore

These past few month's has taught me alot and Has shown me just how strong

i really am I've shed Countless tears ask countless questions searching For answers

as to why did i have to be the one to Indore this pain these situations

has taught me Valuable life lessons but

at the cost of my heart Being ...

seytre

Chillin on bed and I'm missing you

Like wishing for things to go back

Normal or to my sense of normality

I can't stand it not having you two

I miss the days of smiles laughter

You kept that warmth in my heart

And your sister was the spark we cried

And laugh in the dark but morning came

And i guess it made it better for me to weather

The weather and storms nothing phase me nothing

Grazed me i thank god daily for these blessings

Everything was just a lesson or maybe a session

Of love that i needed and now I'm bleeding

Internal damnged has been just done i made yall my number one

i love you seytre
I love you seytre
I love you.

lets be real

If we were being real with each other you'd tell me some like you don't think that it'll be a good idea for us to be together and that you still contain some form of feelings from the past

if we were being real with each other you'd probably tell me some like it'll never work out between us because between us something so right could only get left and I've seen what happens when I'm at best i get paid damn it i mean i get played

if we were being honest with each other you'd probably say some like let me explain what i meant when i told you when I'm at my best i get paid yeah i get paid alright my pay day cums in the form of a bad , lies, false comment, and the rest i just get paid in change as in he said he'll change or that he has changed but things remind the same i shouldn't have to explain what i meant when i said all i do get is get played you know the game as well as i do so that j...