I watched a man put his hands on my mom. I watched my Granny come from the club sloppy drunk. I watched my dad sniff crack right in front of me and my boyfriend. Like that crap is normal. I watched my best friend die in front of me. I blame myself, I shouldn't have let her take those pills. We should have dialed 911, maybe she would have lived. I watched my brother end up in juvenile for something that wasn't true. I watched my cousin tease me for getting molested like it was a type of joke. I watched my uncle pull out his d*ck. Finally I got the courage to tell my dad. What did he do, turn his back. What did his mom do, took up for her kid, a grown a$$ man. But she is known for covering up secrets. I watched my family hurt when I took a bottle of pills. I was ready to go, but God disagreed. I watched my cousin's ex man come through my patio door, destroy my sh^t because of something my cousin did. The next day, she was back by his side. Never did he apologize. I no longer feel safe in my own home. I watched my first love wear an orange jumpsuit not once but twice. I watched him get put in handcuffs the same week of getting out. This is some of my dirty laundry that needed to be aired out!
Phenomenal Paris
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Dirty Laundry
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The Immortal Wize says: Put it all out there because it can really stink up your life. |
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darylg44 says: Everything on the table...top to bottom this is one for the archives. great write...honest |
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Phenomenal Paris says: Thank you |
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stud_)trou8le says: your are a beautiful woman no doubt...and I'm definitely not trying to offend u...if I did I apologize... through ya writing I see ya strengths...I like the way u word it...let alone expression.. |
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Phenomenal Paris says: Thank you |
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Sunwarrior7 says: This is awesome !!!! |
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OTHER POEMS WRITTEN BY Phenomenal Paris
Feeling MyselfI'm feeling myself My attention you crave Trying to destroy me, People whispering, "Look, Paris is all grown up. "  |
Accept MeAccept me for who I am today! Not who I was yesterday! Understand the woman. I'm no longer that girl. I have change. Come explore my new world. All I ask for is a chance. Let me show you what I am capable of. Stop being concern with the past. Focus on the present. My imperfections shouldn't overshadow my perfections! Accept the woman that stand in front of you today! |
My Family MosesIf I can take on the pain of the people I love, I would. My dad behind in his bills. Things was easier when he was slanging dope. Working 12 hours+ and still struggle to stay afloat. He trying to do right but I see, he's losing hope. My brother fought for this country, now he's fighting for a better life. How ironic is that? My mother still in these streets, fighting with the demons from her past. Always running to crack. My cousin stripping to take care of her little man. My best friend mind messed up after losing his dad. My cousin had a scholarship but spending life in prison for not being snitch. My man trying to do right for once in his life. I guess the past is finally catching up to his ass. My Granny in her 50s, raising her great grandkids. My uncle got 3 degrees and still can't land a job. But education is the key, right? Damn I'm tired of seeing my family in pain. Trying to be their Moses, determined to get them to the promise land. They sometimes lose faith but God has re... |
16 AgainI feel like I'm 16 falling in love for the first time all over again. Sitting across from the boy that earned the key to my heart. We shared laughter, sweet gestures, intimate moments. Living again in the year 2008. The present trouble washed away. Today marks our first date. Today is the day, I realizes this love can be saved. |
TrappedFell in love with a chick I would have never given a second glance. She was just some chick, I use to d*ck down. Man I didn't know I was messing with a psychotic chick. I let this bit*h move in, I fall in love with her kids. I had her best interest at heart. Man I didn't know this chick was playing me from the start. I'd bring her around my family, we all kicking it. Unaware this chick had tricks up her sleeves. I mean this bit*h fooled me into thinking my baby was in her womb. First time father, I was ready for a little me. I'm rubbing her stomach, anxious the arrival of my little baby. All along this chick was faking her pregnancy. Never did she go to the doctor, not one ultrasound. One month turned into two months, two months turned into three months, her belly unchanged. Now my mind is questioning if this pregnancy is legit. So one day I asked her to piss on a clear blue. To my surprise the result, one line. Damn this pregnancy wasn't even tru... |
Dirty LaundryI watched a man put his hands on my mom. I watched my Granny come from the club sloppy drunk. I watched my dad sniff crack right in front of me and my boyfriend. Like that crap is normal. I watched my best friend die in front of me. I blame myself, I shouldn't have let her take those pills. We should have dialed 911, maybe she would have lived. I watched my brother end up in juvenile for something that wasn't true. I watched my cousin tease me for getting molested like it was a type of joke. I watched my uncle pull out his d*ck. Finally I got the courage to tell my dad. What did he do, turn his back. What did his mom do, took up for her kid, a grown a$$ man. But she is known for covering up secrets. I watched my family hurt when I took a bottle of pills. I was ready to go, but God disagreed. I watched my cousin's ex man come through my patio door, destroy my sh^t because of something my cousin did. The next day, she was back by his side. Never did he apologize. I no longer feel s... |
One pill, four pills, ten pills.. DeadOne pill, two pills, three pills is not enough, four pills, five pills, six pills, I'm mixing them up. Handle bar here, handle bar there, anything to numb the pain I feel. What was once for an headache or back pain, became my way to escape my everyday pain. My new addiction, fatal attraction, obsessed with the way I feel.. Not caring about the aftermath. I am now a pill head. I'm taking a pill to sleep, a pill to stay awake, a pill for nonexistence pain. seven pills. eight pills, nine pills, I'm taking prescription that don't belong to me. I don't care, I need a fix. My life I am willing to gamble with. Crushing them up and sniffing them, I need it to affect me now. My addiction is getting so bad, I'm experiencing with all type of pills. My life is spiraling downhill. One pill, two pills, three pills, four pills, five pills, six pills, seven pills, eight pills, nine pills, ten pills, My eyes closed, n... |
Deadly Weapon...I can coerce you into doing anything I please, just by the words I speak. Words of manipulation, I can say one thing but mean something totally different but you will only believe what is pleasing to the heart. You are my puppet, your emotions is the strings. I cater to your weaknesses, give you the attention you need. To you it's something serious, to me it's all a game. I perceived to have your best interest at heart, deceiving you from the start, receiving my own personal gain. Thinking it's love. My words you fell in love with not me. You become resistant but I am persistent to make you stay. Your thoughts you no longer hold. The words of persuasion. In your heart you know it's wrong but your mind is under my control. I play into your insecurities, I attack your reasoning, you longer cherish yourself. The words of deception. I can demand, command, anything and everything. Freely you will give it to me. The words of intimidation. Be careful the words you choose to believe. Choose... |
Seductive WomanHe say, he love the way I lick my lips, the movement of my hips, I am a seductive woman. My eyes reveal it all, my mouth never have to talk, I am a seductive woman. I have him under my demand, his body reacts to my command, I am a seductive woman. My family and friends say, "It's just lust, some other woman have his love. You and your seductive ways, lose to a woman who have more to offer him. You're just his dirty little freak. You say you want a ring, why are you so easy? Oh right, you are a seductive woman. You think you can keep a man with what's between your leg? He only think of you with his second head. He have a full course meal, you're just the appetizers in between. My poor seductive woman. I think you need to come up with a game plan, aren't you tired of playing the seductive woman?" Damn maybe my family is right. Reality starting to sink in. I'm playing a game, losing to a woman of substance in the end. Every time he calls, he asking what you wearin... |