I'm Sorry

A Thinking Kind of Man

I don't want this anymore
I want to let it go
I'm not who I was before
I have to show you so you know
That I gave away what I fought to gain
That I learn this lesson slow
I longed but my longing was in vain
Cause I lost along time ago
I needed this but never realized the pain
I only saw illusions in shadow shows
And what I heard weighed on my brain
But I fought for this even so
My victory-now my ball and chain
All my happiness is now my woe
With thought I drove myself insane
So when I see my demons I say hello

To A Fool

I underestimated the search
and came out a fool
I looked for answers everywhere
and everywhere found ghouls
I journeyed through the lowest valleys
and with shadows as my fuel
I searched for this thing you call love
and the love I found was cruel
I went to Mecca but I’m no pilgrim
I will always be a mule

I'm Sorry

I apologize for relying so heavily on you
I’m sorry for the times I put on or withdrew
I heard people talk but who were they
I never meant to confuse the words you say
Nobody knows what we're deserving of
But I don't get it, I just wanted to feel the love
A kind of love like that that actually once existed
Why is what I get either conditional or twisted
For far too long I have known this strain
But of the blackest soil grows the finest grain
Love and sadness aren't one and the same
Til the day you die you’ll remember my name

Orange Moons + Machines

I think that I’ve gone crazy, mindless.
I’ve lost sight of myself, i am spineless.
I know no controls, I cannot empathize.
A soul that's long been sold and a heart desensitized.
Blood flows through me cold, my pulse mechanized.
Anger's a thousandfold and every second emphasized.

A Mountain - Haiku x3

My soul's made of stone
From triumph to tragedy
A mountain has grown

This stature my own
Forever building higher
Til peaks fashion thrones

The angels have flown
To wherever, without doubt
Mountains stand alone