The Best of Me

The Best of Me

 I lay in this cold bed looking at the ceiling, thinking of what has been done
I promised myself I wouldnt go back to my favorite drug
I even promised my mother I wouldnt
She looked in my eyes but i dodge her sunlite eyes
She knew I was lying
She knew I promised her just to keep her from crying
But I did it again
I didnt take my medicine and now Im bloody
Its my blood!
Im bleeding because she was resisting like I was officer
Now I hear two people crying.
My wife yells "look at what youve done"
I refuse cuz ill cry
Im have more shame then a man begging on the corner
Even as my anger cures, those voices
Those crying voices wont stay out of my head
My anger got the best of me
When my high is gone Im stuck feeling like that stray dog walking against traffic
So I ask myself has my anger gotten the best of me?

Stepdaddy Zoned- Inspired by Phenomenal Paris' "Modern Day Sarah and Abraham"

I met a girl with a child

o yes shes fertile i tell myself

Well Ill take care of ur child and well have more

U dont want anymore?

so you want me to take care of a child thats not mine and not give me any?

How dare you?

U want to keep ur birth control when u didnt use the same method previously

How can i pray for a child while sexing u

I should be enjoying sex with you but Im praying that a baby comes in 9 months

Why go to walmart and people say ur child is cute and i say thank you like i really had apart in it

Should i walk out on what i know loves me and make a child elsewhere?

Yes i know a child wont grow inside of me

Why cant i experience a baby kicking inside of you

Why can't I experience the moment my child lays his eyes on me

Why must u shed tears at the possibility of a positive pregnancy test

Am i not good enough to place a few seeds into ur soil