I remember wanting to kill myself
I recall wanting to die
Knocking at death's door
Dying to get inside
Begging death to just let me in
Grant me some access
I just couldn't find a reason to live
Death denied me access
Wouldn't even let me get my foot past the threshold
Death looked through the peephole
And told me that it wasn't my time
Come back later
So I'm looking I'm searching
Through the rolodex in my mind
For reasons to live
To coexist on this planet
With a bunch of ignorant ***s
Who make it hard for everyone else
Then I realized that I'm being hard on myself
Maybe I'm the ignorant one
Taking life for granted
Giving up so easy
Running towards death
And it doesn't even want me
But here comes life
Waiting for me with open arms
Ready to cradle me
But I'm always running away
Afraid life is going to hurt me
So ignorance is bliss
I don't give life a chance
And I'm the ignorant ***
Who's making it hard for everyone else
To like me to love me
To get close to me
All living things
All walks of life
Everything that breathes
Is dangerous to me
Waiting on death to set me free
While life is waiting to set me free
So my reason to live found me
I'm running towards my freedom
I'm beginning to love life