if u only knew

Breakup

Its All You

Sometimes I think the worst thing I ever did was love you,a heart full of burdens,stress taking over,I feel like you the type that would give a cold shoulders once the part of winning you is over.I gets down and back up like a roller coaster chasing that feeling I once had before by heart froze up it's a soul ache deeper than you know hurting new more to let go Cuz you have control you manipulate my mind so much I lose my dreams even my goals, lost track of time you gotta know it's permanent, a cycle,some design that arose from the time of meeting you then seeing you and now this love that's deceitful too lies within our bed like it's breathing and sleeping truth but I been mislead cause it's those parts I see in you Man it's all up in by head hitting me in my stomach like a feeding tube losing my hair Cuz this stress shows me proof just tell me what you need me to do Cuz I'm trying to stay focus but it's hard to juggle love when confusion pushes it way through I'm hopeless caus...

Thought Of You

As i clamor to every thought of you i know get hard when its not suppose to damn y did i have to love you so hard keep telling myself that this ain't the worst part ...its like my mind is playing games with my  heart i wanna start over but idk where to start i hear yo voice in my head and i cover my ears... just ain't how it appears ...paint me the bad girl like I'm the reason its been difficult for all these years but people don't understand what love would make u do..settling for less than what I'm worth was the truth believing whats in my mind that it could work out if it has to but you let me down and i was fooled lead me astray and i chose to do things my way and i loss the battle gave up because i couldn't win kept telling myself to keep trying over and over and over again ...i hate how i feel now mind clouded filled with doubts trying to forget a love i thought i cud so easily do without ...but i miss what we had even though the good at times outweighed the bad...spend...

if u only knew

I'm kind of skeptical about it all questioning my heart and whose name.I shud call but you got me thinking it cud all be right if I just push my doubts to the side and take a leap and explain to you how things cud be unleashing what's truly in me I'm.saying if we cud turn the page then mmaybe u wud notice what I notice in you how provoking iS the thought or two just mentioned yo name and was painless numb to the hurt they sent telling me I don't have enough patients bit I waited for you I'm still waiting on you ..keep a smile throughout thinking like damn only.if you knew,only if you knew ...how amazing it feels to see u to replace my stress with rest and depression with happiness a wonderful sensation kind of hoping u show your face some hiding within yourself a missplaced gun shooting. Bullets of approval and bad habits that can't be erased none I realize it ain't fun being alone.so I figure u think I'm a use u as rebound huh but that ain't true cuz before my.heartbreak I was ...

Know Your Heart

...I wannna know you,know your heart better wish our conversations cud last forever ....exchanging thoughts and ideas possible dreams ...what falling down and getting up truly means.....figure u wud think I'm crazy but lately I been trippin boasting bout your looks and the way you have me drifting...the stars are aligned and see us close enouggh to each other to where air cud no longer fit in yea I've fallen victim to the beautiful way u smile even laugh its like I get the butterflies and my stomach begins to drop past my feet and I start to wonder why I can't stand so I drop down to my knees clearly at your mercy speaking love into existence pure persistence like a echo in the wind from a distance ...

I Call Her Love

She has the sweetest touch,but why do i guard all of my heart but not so much? is it because of my lack of trust head full of pride and a taste filled with lust,she doesn't understand my attempts to hold her hand,to grasp her whenever i can ,i chased,my heart raced ,i faced what many could not take yet she left me please im hoping by mistake.I hear them say she's beautiful that the feelings shes brung among us is unusual its incredible how jealous i get just from seeing others surrounded by her,from the smiles and the tears to the uncontrollable fears i placed my heart out there just to see if she would care she lifted me up but left me fallin through the air while others were floating ii thought she was treating me unfair for heartache and pain ii was never prepared you didn't spare my heart and now iim scared but still willing to risk another chance for you to share these feelings and emotions no one but you can repair

No Air

Even when your not near i feel,feel your eyes looking upon me so sweet but in disguise what you desire on the inside yet so deep it sets my heart on fire hear the beat " BBoom BBoom BBoom BBoom" but it slowly begins to picc up speed Once i picture a you and me i could hardly breathe oxygen needed my lungs begin to plead ,unable to speak until your within my reach your my air i seek ,i was blaccing out no longer able to stand upon my feet until you touched my skin gave me a taste of your lips i begin to feel life take over my body and im floating upon clouds of love, is this a dream? i open my eyes up and your all that could be seen innocent,chocolate skin i think i've found a queen ;nubian hoping she wont ever leave because if she does again there wont be no air to filter throughout my bloodstream cuhs on her love i strongly depend if only she knew she were my oxygen

A Serene Place

How do ii speak ? well, not speak but how do ii seek that in which ii need? how do ii breathe wiithout losiing siight of realiity,recently iit seems ii tend to driift off iinto theses dreams where iim happii and losiing love has become my hearts fatality lustful thoughts of you and me, my sexual desire begiins to phiine. iim all caught up putting my trust in someone ii never really thought of liike this who pushes a smile on my face and whose lips iive never kissed but yet now ii yearn and my stomach churns iive become desperate when usually u have to earn my affectiion iim willing to let my guard down just to keep u around ,silly riight how when ur not near me ii wiish u could be by my siide but iit shouldnt be this deep and apart of me is wondering why thiis is happening. ii thought ii had iit figured out until now that ii knew every step wiithiin my liife until god changed the route ii diidnt thiink ii could feel thiis way my miind raciin,chasiin theses thoughts that i no long...

With Love

Feel That? my breath against your skin our souls colliding trying to blend its the excitement within, our heart beats coinciding again i feel,feel your fingertips on which i slowly depend they tease and flirt with my needs and hence our greed to please one another til our knees get weak ,at ease when i know were at our peak ,Rhythmically our bodies speak its what we seek,what we phine for ,lust after even more Kisses that spread leaving my lips breathless suffocating, no air, i'm helpless but you arrive and i'm alive for a moment there i was dying yearning for your touch missing you oh so very much, our home within this bed where i lay suddenly alone the pain is a secret That i deal with on my own ,you take me to another time zone holding on so tight never letting go your love is so deep feels like its caressing my soul feel That? feel my kisses along your body that's lifted ,i feel us driftin earth is no longer in existence heaven bound desire climbin slowly drippin out,i feel i...