I was only five when God called you home,
No way to call you, or ask for advice,
I was feeling all alone.
I never had a chance to tell you that "I love you",
something I wish I could do.
I own no pictures of you, not even one
to remember you by,
So much I wanted to say to you,
but I was only five.
Growing up was hard, Family members left
me emotionally scarred, So I'm not so open,
Feelings on guard.
Sometimes I ask myself "Why me"
couldn't God see that I needed you? but yet
he still took you way from me.
It's been 25 years since you've been gone,
the sad moments without you the pain brings on.
Every since I was five, I've been trying to remain strong,
But the sadness has remained here for so long,
wishing you were right here where you belong.
I remember you falling on the glass table and breaking it,
Little did I know that would be the last time I'd see you alive,
You don't even know how much I cryed.
I've never dealt with the emotions that came once you
passed away, Now I am an adult and the feelings
did stay.
I don't even know where you are buried,
you know how our family is,
they wont even tell me.
But as I write this poem, tears begin to drop on my paper,
releasing some of the emotions inside, flowing tears are hard
to stop, some feelings hard to deal with, so I leave them blocked.
I can only Imagine, what you would be like today,
how beautiful you would be,
I guess I will have to wait until the lord calls me home to see.
I just wanted you to know, that you are always in my heart,
you carry a special spot in my heart, Loving you
I will never stop.
Even though its been 25 years since you've
been gone, I promise to always remain strong,
and handle whatever life brings on. I miss you,
and long for your love, but for now I will love you
from here on earth until, I go home to
the lord above.
I love you ma, with love sent to you above, your youngest daughter...
Tretre.