how could I be mad.
it wasn't her fault.she did what any person would do in the situation.she was love starved partly my fault for holding back my heart,I tried to explain to her that I was not in anyway ready to take that step from the start,but her mind worked like a ray of sunshine.always ready to illuminate the dark.I loved her more than words could ever express,but starring into my eyes, I could tell that she could see that a part deep within me had already died.for her still sticking with me strong, was the most of beautiful lies.sometimes she yelledtrying to let me know how her heart burned and her emotions turned.I just looked into her eyes wishing I could cryjust to cleanse what I wished was going on inside of me,but I just stood there wide eyed nodding my head as she plead and begged.what could I have said,but what I felt.which was nothing,so in silence we sat as emotions grew dead.the day was here, I could at once see her fear.she asked me to give her just one reason to stay here!I asked my mind to play something to say,but I knew there was no nourishment to lay way.beautiful flowers like her can never bloom in the shade,so stood there hoping she understood what I did.when I told her good bye on that Sunday.....