I accept the reality, that you couldn't love as deep as me. I realize that all my cries, are not going to bring you back to me. I had so much hope that we'd be together, but the reality is that we'd never be.
No matter how i cried, soaking my pillow, doesn't mean you'll be there to comfort me. No matter how i try to ignore my memories of us, they'll always haunt me.No matter who you choose, I'll always know that i was born to be with you. Even when i felt like screamin, throwin things, you're not on the other end of my phone thats ringing. When I'm lonely and coldness surrounds me, you're arms wont be the ones holdin me. This is my reality. Regardless who i sleep with or dated, it will always be beneath the love you showered on me.
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Alekia Abeni says: I really needed this piece today. Beautifully written. Thank you for sharing. |
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scash102 says: Thank you for reading Alekia Abeni! I'M glad You enjoyed it |
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love_supreme says: "No matter who you choose, I'll always know that i was born to be with you." - Da*n, this is nice. |
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Coalhouse says: Bet |
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