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Good Vibes

A million people pass me by

Without saying hello

But it's okay though

I still keep a smile across my face

As I wait for traffic to clear

My headphones

Are blasting in my ears

My jam is on as I smile with such grace

I'm deaf to the city's stress

I inhale a deep breath

Then exhale it back outward

A sigh of relief while I'm in my happy place

As day transforms to night

The sun goes down

The moon comes around

With city lights helping to illuminate my space

I feel good

I'm in a good mood

I feel good

With my best attitude

I feel good

I feel such gratitude

I feel good

Marching down the avenue

I just simply feel good

I Found Relief

I apologize to myself

For holding on to so much grief

It wasn't fair to punish myself

I found relief in setting myself free

I owed myself an explanation

On why I felt I deserved to suffer

On why I depended on others for comfort

Then finally at last I discovered

The answer was found within forgiveness

Grant mercy to my aching soul

Wounds healed but left some scars

Beauty marks is all I see upon me

I apologize to myself

For holding on to so much grief

It wasn't fair to punish myself

I found relief in setting myself free

No perfection resides in me

In none of us and that's the key

To unlock many doors of love

A reflection of reality to see

What it looks like to be closed off

Shut out from the universe

That's what I did to everyone else

It hu...

Adolescence To Adulthood

I want to stay forever young

But yet I want to grow old

It seems I don't know what I want

But God will provide the answer

To all the questions I inquire

A natural phase of growing up

The transition isn't easy

No one said it would be

And that's as fair as it gets

Just go with the flow of things

From adolescence to adulthood

It isn't a straight path

To discovering the light

Pit stops along the road

No shortcuts to get me through

Responsibility and ownership

Comes with the territory

The perks and privileges 

Isn't for free and shouldn't be

Taken for granted

From adolescence to adulthood

Moving forward I accept

The world for what it is

Tolerance for all species

Since we all have to coexist

Just like everyone e...

I Gave My All

The one I gave my all to

Just threw it all away

Like yesterday's trash

Straight gutter

Down the drain

Swimming in sewage

Contaminated with filth

Never to be recycled

Or reused again

What a waste

The one I gave my all to

Dropped it on the floor

Watched it shatter to a million pieces

Swept it under a rug

Collecting dust

Never to be seen

Or remembered again

What a pity

The one I gave my all to

Misplaced it somewhere

So carelessly

Didn't keep up with it

Lied about it

Hoping I'd never find out

Or inquire about it again

What a shame

The one I gave my all to

Living

I'm thankful to my Father I'm able to make a living

But what's the point of making something I can't make use of

Can I live

I'm living to make a living

So I ask myself

Am I really living

Doesn't feel that way

Then my weekly paycheck reminds me I am

Life reminds me by sending me my monthly bills

My landlord reminds me by asking me for the rent

So I ask myself

Who am I living for

Living only seem to be for the rich

I sometimes sit in my living room

Daydreaming about how the wealthy live

The best things in life are free

So I've heard

But living isn't one of them

Must pay the cost to be the boss

Work hard to play hard

So they say

Can't afford to live you can always settle for existing

And that's what most people do

Inc...

Journey

I'll explain later just come with me

Please don't ask me a series of questions

Just trust me

It'll be alright if you do

I understand your alertness

But don't become apprehensive

Don't be afraid of the unknown

We made it this far by faith

To gain access to where I'm about to take you

You must believe since that is the key

Although you must admit

The suspense is an adrenaline rush

A thrill seeker's reward

It's better than any roller coaster we've been on

And we've been on plenty

So why cop out now

Let's go I'll protect you

You're safe from harm I promise

You have my word

I'll be your personal tour guide

I'll make it seem like a vacation

Just follow me

Allow me to lead the way

None Of My Business

It's none of my business what you do behind my back

That's why I'm always looking forward to a better future

I can't see what's ahead of me looking over my shoulder

Watching my back every second that expires

I consider that a dysfunctional way to live in this world

What's been said or done may not have been witnessed by me

But that's alright because the Most High got his eyes on you

No one can escape His all seeing eye

So continue to be discreet about your pettiness fueled by misery

Remain in your dark closet where you feel safe and secure

I'd rather bathe in the light of forgiveness and illuminate joy

Stay behind me with the negativity keep it where it belongs

With those that choose to nurture it and give it a home

I have no vacancy for it since I've already evicted it from my life

It's your burde...

No Rush

I'm in no rush to get married today

Which is funny because I'm rushing to the honeymoon

I got it all backwards as I'm an expert at working in reverse

Unorthodox is my relationships

Unconventional methods to my madness

Broken rules leads to broken hearts

But still they were meant to be broken

Shattered they become puzzling

So I've decided to make a game out of putting the pieces together

So it'll all make sense to me yet again

So I can pretend to have all the answers

Groomed myself to avoid being a groom

Jumping witches brooms to achieve a sense of matrimony

It just isn't in the cards for me anymore

I'm not in a rush to get married today

So maybe I should take things slow from now on

The Bull

Everyday is something else

Even though I'm riding the same old bull

Entertaining life's rodeo

As I play the part of the clown

People are amused but I don't see anything funny

I fall off to get back up and ride some more

Busting my testicles again and again

I gets no applause just crooked grins

Laughter and dirty jokes

Their enjoyment is at my expense

I'm ready to stop riding the bull now

Even the bull needs to rest

Isn't Worth It

I've been offered plenty of things

But none of which I desire

My independence rejects them

My pride won't accept

Face me like a real person

Don't hide behind material objects

False dreams and faulty promises

I want your truth not your money

Your honesty and your word holds more weight than gold

Besides the high life is played out

It gets tedious rather quickly

I need real love not another optical illusion

A diamond shines in the sun but so does aluminum foil

Is you strong and unbreakable or will you crumble

Your success is your success and vice versa

Unless we're building our success together I don't want any part of yours

I'm not for sale

I can't be bought or sold

I can't be auctioned off to the highest bidder

My ancestors went through that

So why wou...