It's not as easy as it looks, inside my mind is a young child who always cries plane tears of pain to gain answers to such as
Where's daddy at?Who'll teach me how to catch, throw a ball and bat?DEEP DOWN HE'S THE SPOILT BRAT For leaving, for cheating Leaving my mom screaming and grieving While I'm in the next room dreaming, dreaming a dream which takes me away to a far away place maybe deep space where tears don't roll down my face an my father isn't a disgrace who's existence I wouldn't want to erase And he'd be my rock not a mental block and the reasons I go on angry walks because he's gone I keep telling my self it's his loss *** itHe didn't commit and just split what a prick I have so many unanswered questions I want a confession why couldn't you show any affection and that fills me with uncontrollable aggression i wana show you a lesson to send you into depression and let you know how it feels But i was raised better not to fold under pressure to be endlessly clever and to never say never But with you there To believe in me I would've took it easy not strived to achieve my dreams or have to punch a bully and watch him bleed with a slight grin of relief to be honest I wana meet you to put my mind at ease Because when I hear that saying "like father like son" my body turns numb I look for a bottle of rum wishing I owned a gun, that s dumb I don't have your mentality I'll be there for my family Sitting in a garden happily throwing my boy so high he forgets about gravity, feeding excessive amounts of candy taking care of his cavities I can't stress how much I want this to be my reality I shall strive to love my gorgeous wife till the end of our lives Good fathers come a dime a dozen without a discussion unless I get a concussion this feeling in my stomach is telling me I'll be a great husbandTime raised me and it's unfair after all these years my minds still unclear I'm done shedding tears it's time to clear the air Thanks for not being there...