She Left

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romance

She left.
It wasn't like it was a big fight
The time just wasn't right
But the time hasn't been right for 4 months
I'm behind on time because of my heart
And my mind is cursing at the thought
But it let's my heart roam
Because if it's gonna learn a lesson it will be on it's own
But I thought she was a blessing
I thought she would get the message
But the time wasn't right
So for 4 ***ing months I've been kissing
For 4 ***ing months I've been holding
4 ***ing months and I've been treating you like a queen
When deep down you haven't given me a damn thing
Who am I supposed to be mad at in this
You told me how you felt but I didn't listen
I just thought you could get over it with time
But it didn't happen that way
You laid in my arms crying
And said another 's name
And I was infuriated I won't lie
The lady I care so much for just called me another guy
The lady I cared so much for looked me in my eyes
And said "fred, I'm sorry but I can't do this"
"fred, you deserve better" "just leave me here"
And I know I deserve better
I know I should just get over you
But I want you to be mine
I want to explore your mind
I want you all of the time
I want to see you when I open my eyes
But I don't and my heart pains so much from it
It hurts every time I think about it deeply
And here I was thinking you were the right one for me
Thought you were something different but something changed in you
I just want the old you back
The one I took pictures with
The one I laid up all day with
The one I was happy with
The honeymoon stage shimmered gold over us,
Why must it turn me into a fool now