Swim
I spent a few years drowned deep down in reality,
I watched people live in their fantasy as I lived broken and lifeless in my own reality where I run to imagination from,
My ocean dried right under my feet,
Unaware of the of pain I've been living in that a call a lie,
From the sweet savory I held within me turnt bitter and spoiled,
I let life run it's course on me,
As my authentic soul turnt to a corpse,
Taking away my happiness of being free,
I have a soul mate whom I share many moments of temporary happiness from a distance with,
But I still search for my soul in many requests of living my dreams,
I can never fulfill my limits of feeling like a superior,
Instead being convinced every time of being a full failure,
I'm walking back to the sand from where I started swimming,
I'm going to face my horror and defeat my fears like a super human,
A lion in the field racing to the finish line while my demons get lefted in the dust behind my back of the past,
One day I hope... |
Just Different
Let the music play... Just let it run through my mind as much as possible,
My heart burns from broken promises and lies,
Feeling like my walls are being torn down piece from intruders who masked themselves as my loved ones,
A painfilling thought sliding through my temple of mistakes I had no choice but to take,
If ever so was the need to just stand up and leave... would be impossible,
Just the thought of letting those who used me and turning away would visualize me being a ***ed up failure,
As already I'm somewhat in that comparison from any prideful bum living broke with no hope or aspirations,
My conscious being tampered with fear and the luxury of currency to somebody else hands that didn't dealt with no sacrifice or internal blooded scars,
I took on the responsibility of carrying buckets filled with other people's trials and tribulations,
As mine spilled on the floor and lefted to dry out,
I spent years searching for myself,
Not realizing she stayed at the ocean fro... |
White Nightmares
The governement tryna keep us unaware, But I'm consciously aware of my well being,Not safe around this universe being destroyed,I guess there is more self hatred in the bigot white man today than his ancestors ever had,To believe every black is dangerous is like saying the white man discovered America...,It's pure undiscovered BULL!,White America thought they could drown us out with psychotic police men,In all honesty they want our culture without the sacrifice we're going through,But our culture ain't for sale and neither are we,So hey to all you racists, red necks, republicans, bigots with badges,I have an announcement to make...,YOU TRIED... AND YOU STILL FAILING! |
Misery Luck
It's just my heart beating, I still got a soul in me but I don't care to love anymore, just take my body and use it the way I ask you to. Place my on the bed and use me to the highest advantage, *** a feeling the moment, just kiss me where it hurts to numb the pain. Pretty girls don't cry we just screw the pain away with another guy. How does he like it, because I can't find a care to tell you how much it taints me. This night is dry I feel gloomy and gold. Holding the higher power with the loss of gold medal. Da *** was I suppose to do? What was the movie script for how life was suppose to be? I leave for 2 seconds to come back deceived and love thrown away. I'ma hold these tears back out of existence, let our partnership sail off in the night under the stars. Let my body be fulfilled in the hands of my eternity love. With no promises of a better tomorrow. Just slow kisses signaling of a better us. Then you'll never have to worry about what we could've been in the now. Pea... |
Friday's
I chilled upon the beach alone, All my anger left on the devil's bridge,My silence flowing in the wind,My vibes sparkles just like the happy blue sea,To be honest I don't want anyone here with besides me,I never thought living in my head I would physically place my stamp here,The moment where I'm love with my crazy mental,How I can see my shells reflecting through the endless open heavenly blue sunny sky,Is God holding a mirror for me to stare back at,The happy being of myself worth is a killer to evil human hatred,I can live bright and hot like my sun,No human can empower my honor of me being me,A queen learns to fall and rise again to conquer her palace,I love this love evolving around each of us,I feel waaaay up like a palm tree,I feel blessed to be who I am and what I've created,I hope I'll always feel like a new Friday |
Black Excellence Delivery
You see this problackness surrounding me like a bubble, That's my pride,You smell that erotic fruit on my chest,That's the sweetness in me,You see dudes howling and whistling at me,Yeah that's my confidence flying behind me,You think you higher power,Well let's see if that don't crack like my skin,Stupidity is such a waste,And I'm reading a book past your ignorance,I wave my Caribbean flag in the air for my pride,You wave your flag cuz that's what you hide behind from,You see them educated black folks lifting above the sky,That's my proud community in excellence,We live every night like the night is still young,My brotha over there graduating with a Science master's,My sista graduating with a law degree,Or my other sista working the pole to collect money for college institution,We make options from limited choices we're given,We are to superior in sp... |
Battle Of My Ex
I had you for many then lost you for plenty, You are everything I'm afraid to lose,We can share from time to time,Be your nasty as you desire,But after a while your heart let's loose,Your eyes catches another grenade,You sense she's your bomb,Every night causing you explosions,I'm hurt,I'm angry,I need sweet revenge,Watch me change into someone you love,As I practice to love you carelessly,I'm magical in the human field,And your totally f***ed. |
Hurt Me Not
Weakness will never run in my DNA, Failures can't prevail me,Living in hell although I'm still a blossom flower,Eyes lazer beaming for a label in me,Labels thrown at me from a human race,Was afraid to open myself and smile,Mentality alone and protective of herself,Never thought I could look back and still move forward breathing,I grew to the acceptance in me,I believe what my mind sees before I conquer it,I follow my heart and destroy pesticides crawling towards my energy,I got places to be,I got trophies to win,So please be awake for I have erupted,Glo up in affect,All eyes on me,It'll happen.... |
Monster
I never felt sicker like I was cancer it's self, Two empty souls angry towards each other,Battling to survive at they're own hand,I just stare scared to death hoping nobody comes my way,Being in the middle I can't decide who to protect,And who I must go against,She's afraid of his movements,He's afraid of her actions,I'm afraid I don't have anyone to hide behind,At night I pray to thy king of human kind,To make me oblivious to the evilness,And slay them with kind,But lately my body is leaning off a cliff,And everyone's back is focused on me,Now it's just me out here grinding with me,I can feel hell approach at my feet,Waving in my direction,I never would've thought it would catch me,Go through hell as my time was starting develop,But now I can live lavishly in hell,I've arrived without introducing myself,But it's like they already know ... |
Failed Human Accomplishments
She said take care of this lil situation, She's see a spot,I see an over filled tub needing me in it,At such an young age still a child,You expect me to be fully experienced to your life game,We're two different kinds,You're equivalent to everybody I see,I'm just a species out on her own,Already filled with pressure from eyes criticizing me to do better,And you become an outsider filling my head with fantasizing lies,As I believe you foolishly,Enough of the bitterness of spilled milk,More like wanting to butcher my head off from a spilled drip of red wine,Poor, and lost is what you cherish of me,It's the only door you can walk through and drag your foot over me like a door mat,From your lil baby to an unsuccessful gift you should've left closed,Every hurdle I try to jump over,You trip making me fall on my face,Banging my brain making me consciously realize ... |
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