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As the tears drop
Every memory pondering on my mind
Why
How can one be so dumb repeatedly
They ask
I ask myself
Can loneliness really cause desperateness?
Looking into the mirror
I see nothing
Like a reflection of glass
I'm a ghost
Invisible I feel
My heart and mind screaming NO
This person has almost defeated me yet again Purposely hurting me
Always Trying to make me feel less
Judging past relations
Abusing my mind
Repeatedly tryn to make me feel less
Worthless
Non extinct
Feeling handicapped
Incapable Of leaving
Slowly believing the lies she imprints on my mind
Then says I Love you
I guess those words are a bandaid
it's suppose to cover up my pain
My scars from the words
Spoken so coldly out their mouth
My pain
Pain no one takes seriously
I'm a punching bag
Taking each word
Picture it
One by one words feeling like
blows to the bag
As the bag gets punched
over n over
My soul seeps out
brushed
beaten
Used
This oh so usual feeling I subject myself to
Feeling neglected
Isolated
Scared to run to love ones
Hearing people's thoughts
Knowing what everyone thinks
Shes dumb
I'm starting to belive... I'm dumb
How can I not be dumb
When you know what love is
But I know this is not love
Tears flowing down my face
Being sad
Depressed
Feeling like a prisoner in my own home
Escape is my only motive
A Way out
Why everyone who comes in hurts me?
People judge saying
Oh you get what you put out
Bull
Why everyone want to see me down?
What seems like Missions be
to destroy me
I'm tired of fighting
Fighting for my happiness
Worn out
Beaten
Emotionally damaged
Time wasted
Rewind I wish...
Jus giving the unspoken a voice
